After a superb trip to welly and christchurch, i think God wants me to learn what we called the power of LOVE. It was quite amazing when i realise that the power of LOVE supress ALL. First and the foremost, I had seen through the power of love between couples. A relationship of christians is not just dating, yet it's a courtship which is romance with wisdom controlling it so the romance can soar. In order to truly lay the relationship down at god's feet, both parties had to part with them. From the relationship of my friends, i can see that they are striving their best to make the romance work, not in their way, but in god's way instead. A strong foundation is so important to make the long term works, to not to hurt each other, to sustain the love. It takes so much efforts, commitments, willingnesses, wisdoms and courages of course.
Then, here comes the power of LOVE between friends. During the trip, two of my friends angry with each other for a small matters for almost a day. Yet, forget and forgive is the value which God wants me to learn from this. And of course God wants me to learn how to deal with people who get angry and bitter easily with patience. I did do my very best to become the peacemaker. Although i just done what i should, yet i did learn a lots which is more than i could imagine actually. If i could not bear with it, i might just give both of them a slap within saying anything. Yet, i know i couldn't actually do it as it would only make things worst and it doesn't bring any good anyhow. God's command- love others as much as He loves us. And i believe that we will be loved if we willing to love people with an accepting heart. Have a BIG heart people!!! :)
Well, i'm reading ''boys meet girls'' by Joshua Harris to have a deeper understanding about romance which God wants - courtship. Following by '' I kissed date goodbye'' by Joshua Harris too!! :) Both are good books which helps us to have a deeper understanding about romance. Well, God will provide someone who suits you, who you need, who love you, who care about you, who need you, who is willing to sleep in the same bed with you till you get old, who will take your hand and walk through ALL :)
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
We were once like that...
I was studying the whole day in med lib with alicia and ben. Their actions reminded me of us. The '' together studying'', sharing food, teaching each other, nagging, grumbling...reminded me of us. We were once like that. You always and always bear on my grumpiness. We always share our food during recess. I always bring more cakes which made by my mum to share with you and you always allow me to have a bite on your chicken-frosted bun. Lols....i miss that time....That time which you'll always there for me even though we're not in a relationship. I miss the time when i always snatch your addmath book and exercises while you're doing. I miss the time we were sharing your notes and reminding each other the main point to be remembered. I miss the time you was teaching me all the sciences and math stuffs whereas i teached you sejarah instead. I miss the time when i will never ever sit alone during tuition because you'll always sit by my side.
How strange is that as we were so close so good in 5 years but never commit in a relationship??
How strange is that as everytime i went back for visit, i could feel that you're not willing to let me go by purposely make more few turns on road??
How strange is that as everytime i chat with you in msn, you are still be able to bear with me??
How strange is that as in everytime i was in troubles i am thinking of you?? thinking that how good it would be if you could be here for me??
How strange is that you always scare me that i'll misunderstand you have fallen for someone??
We were once like that......
You were once who allowed me to dream that there's a gurdian angel....
I was once to be allowed to be myself in front of you...
we were once like that.....
How strange is that as we were so close so good in 5 years but never commit in a relationship??
How strange is that as everytime i went back for visit, i could feel that you're not willing to let me go by purposely make more few turns on road??
How strange is that as everytime i chat with you in msn, you are still be able to bear with me??
How strange is that as in everytime i was in troubles i am thinking of you?? thinking that how good it would be if you could be here for me??
How strange is that you always scare me that i'll misunderstand you have fallen for someone??
We were once like that......
You were once who allowed me to dream that there's a gurdian angel....
I was once to be allowed to be myself in front of you...
we were once like that.....
Monday, December 7, 2009
tear down the wall of my heart =))
well, we (melia, ying, ben, andrew, jen, calvin) bought a 6 feet tall greenish christmas tree and a box of red n gold glitter ornaments which have different shapes and patterns ( gold sparkle stars, red bell without linglong (which ying complained!!!), lil red flowers n ribbons, decorations which is used to twine around the tree ( somethings looked like a pile of gold reddish grass-melia said), n all the 3 sizes balls!!! Well, we were excited when we got those xmas stuffs from warehouse after lunch n church service....HAHA =))
Then, we had our decoration moments in jen's flat at night. HEHEHE....It's was real fun!! we took heaps of photos. In meanwhile, Ben opened some christmas song to enrich the christmas atmosphere. Hmmm...some weird beats xmas songs do sound creepy!!! So, we decided to sing those cute n merry songs like Rudolph The Red-nosed Reindeer and cute version of we wish u a merry xmas. HAHA....couldn't able to forget how calvin sang the Rudolph's one...was so funny!!! He sang '' rudolph the red-nosed reindeer, has a very shiny nose (like a light bulb)!!!'' He jz love to add those funny decos at the end of the lyric!! But, it did make us laugh out loud (LOLS)!!!
Hmm, then, we had a very lovely movie from sg '' The wedding Game'' if i was not mistakened la!!! Hmmm, it's a very funny mvie. We laughed n laughed most of the time. At the same time, we also gave out lots of opinions as well. HAHAHA....n we had chicken popcorns n wedges for the night....kudos to Jen!! HAHA....then we had the last shot with our micro optic fibre xmas tree which is full of colourful n attractive lights!! Woooohoooo....it's damn nice!!! really...coz we paid hardworks on it!! =)) From steps to steps :
1) opened the huge box
2) took out the folded christmas tree
3) opened up the folded leaves
4) put on our first ornament together (red bell without linglong)
5) then put on the other ornaments to deco it =))
6) set up the cable n fix a plc to put the tree by arranging the sofa again n again (hard chores)
7) hmm...it's the time to LIT it up!!!
8) WOW.....it's so beautiful with colourful lights...
9) admiring n taking photos in the dark with xmas songs on!!
Hmm.....i felt loved on that night. To be honest, i didn't know them very well. But, but, i willing to tear down the wall of my heart= not to be scared of ppl anymore n let ppl into my life n heart!!!
Frankly speaking, it's no easy to tear down the thick layer of the wall we set or build for a long time. yea..initially, i did feel being left out. So, i started to blame ppl....blame my poor english....blame my lousy communication skills....blame my foolish coolness....blame my hypocrite look....blame every single lil weaknesses i have!!!
Yet, i told you it's jz useless of how much u blame. You are jz looking yourself down but not others!! IS YOU yourself build the wall so high which make ppl hard to jump over albeit they wish to or they are willing to. So, i prayed with tears to God. Asking why i was being ignored or left out by ppl?? Asking why i can't get along with them. Asking why ignorance doesn't feel good?? Asking why solitude sometimes hurts??
I got the answer after a few days. I heard God said '' my girl....Go ahead to experience life with ppl out there which u envy so much.....put down the mask......tear down the wall.....n jz BE YOUR REAL SELF!!! '' Yea.....so......i tried to put down my hypocrite character and start to communicate with ppl...hmm...that's sweet when ppl replied u n laugh together. I felt warmed in this zombie town!! THANKS FOR ALL =)))
I jz wanna to say thanks to ppl who accepted me as their friends. Well, i am speaking to someone life now....hope him stop to be introvert!!! yea....he is a good friend of mine....He teaches me how to make coffee n lots of investments things. He told me ''' hey i can't imagine i am chatting craps with you for 3 day a row!!! You are the first one who can able to make me talk so much n tease you!! Thank you!! my guinea pig =))'' Well, i felt being appreciated at that moment. I felt i am growing each day in every single moments. Thanks as well dude!!! love the purity of friendship with teases, encouragements, motivations, reminders, rouses, comforts, pamper and lots!!!
I hope there will be more n more in the coming days , weeks , months n years of course!!!
Hey dear dor, luke carson n mich (if u come back) let's us strive hard together hands in hands walk into the den school in year 2011 =))) God bless us!! let's pray bout it =D
Then, we had our decoration moments in jen's flat at night. HEHEHE....It's was real fun!! we took heaps of photos. In meanwhile, Ben opened some christmas song to enrich the christmas atmosphere. Hmmm...some weird beats xmas songs do sound creepy!!! So, we decided to sing those cute n merry songs like Rudolph The Red-nosed Reindeer and cute version of we wish u a merry xmas. HAHA....couldn't able to forget how calvin sang the Rudolph's one...was so funny!!! He sang '' rudolph the red-nosed reindeer, has a very shiny nose (like a light bulb)!!!'' He jz love to add those funny decos at the end of the lyric!! But, it did make us laugh out loud (LOLS)!!!
Hmm, then, we had a very lovely movie from sg '' The wedding Game'' if i was not mistakened la!!! Hmmm, it's a very funny mvie. We laughed n laughed most of the time. At the same time, we also gave out lots of opinions as well. HAHAHA....n we had chicken popcorns n wedges for the night....kudos to Jen!! HAHA....then we had the last shot with our micro optic fibre xmas tree which is full of colourful n attractive lights!! Woooohoooo....it's damn nice!!! really...coz we paid hardworks on it!! =)) From steps to steps :
1) opened the huge box
2) took out the folded christmas tree
3) opened up the folded leaves
4) put on our first ornament together (red bell without linglong)
5) then put on the other ornaments to deco it =))
6) set up the cable n fix a plc to put the tree by arranging the sofa again n again (hard chores)
7) hmm...it's the time to LIT it up!!!
8) WOW.....it's so beautiful with colourful lights...
9) admiring n taking photos in the dark with xmas songs on!!
Hmm.....i felt loved on that night. To be honest, i didn't know them very well. But, but, i willing to tear down the wall of my heart= not to be scared of ppl anymore n let ppl into my life n heart!!!
Frankly speaking, it's no easy to tear down the thick layer of the wall we set or build for a long time. yea..initially, i did feel being left out. So, i started to blame ppl....blame my poor english....blame my lousy communication skills....blame my foolish coolness....blame my hypocrite look....blame every single lil weaknesses i have!!!
Yet, i told you it's jz useless of how much u blame. You are jz looking yourself down but not others!! IS YOU yourself build the wall so high which make ppl hard to jump over albeit they wish to or they are willing to. So, i prayed with tears to God. Asking why i was being ignored or left out by ppl?? Asking why i can't get along with them. Asking why ignorance doesn't feel good?? Asking why solitude sometimes hurts??
I got the answer after a few days. I heard God said '' my girl....Go ahead to experience life with ppl out there which u envy so much.....put down the mask......tear down the wall.....n jz BE YOUR REAL SELF!!! '' Yea.....so......i tried to put down my hypocrite character and start to communicate with ppl...hmm...that's sweet when ppl replied u n laugh together. I felt warmed in this zombie town!! THANKS FOR ALL =)))
I jz wanna to say thanks to ppl who accepted me as their friends. Well, i am speaking to someone life now....hope him stop to be introvert!!! yea....he is a good friend of mine....He teaches me how to make coffee n lots of investments things. He told me ''' hey i can't imagine i am chatting craps with you for 3 day a row!!! You are the first one who can able to make me talk so much n tease you!! Thank you!! my guinea pig =))'' Well, i felt being appreciated at that moment. I felt i am growing each day in every single moments. Thanks as well dude!!! love the purity of friendship with teases, encouragements, motivations, reminders, rouses, comforts, pamper and lots!!!
I hope there will be more n more in the coming days , weeks , months n years of course!!!
Hey dear dor, luke carson n mich (if u come back) let's us strive hard together hands in hands walk into the den school in year 2011 =))) God bless us!! let's pray bout it =D
Monday, November 30, 2009
BRAKE!!! brake!!!
girl, u really need to step on your brake before you go into more deeper parts!!!
well, let's all the ridiculous thoughts and missings bygones......
Phew!!! completely screwed up by my chem test today!!! i jz felt so tired and discouraged...sigh...
i am trying so hard ( try my very very best to smile everyday =) ) , yet, why i am jz felt myself broken inside?? why there's seems no remedies to cure or to jz wound it up temporarily?? If can, permanently will be great, don't you think so??
hmm...i realized so much lesson of life nowadays. I had a heart-to-heart chat these few days with my vietnam friend, ben. We chatted about dream of life, love and romance, academic life, family, friendship and etc. Well, we both are very well-acted hypocrite..we jz hide every emotion and mood to ourselves. We jz keep on trying our best to hang on the smile till the end albeit we know the result of the end is so uncertain and may not have chances to long for what we really pursue in our life.
Hmm, he was forced to going back to his home country either to continue his studies or do somethings else his parents wish him to do. He was not happy at all, i noticed. But, but, he was still hang on a charming smile all days. Yet, one day before the last physic lab we had....here comes our heart-to-heart convo....
Jane : '' why you seem down in the dumps today?? are you alright??''
ben : '' didn't i look fine?? i am fine what!!!=)) ''
Jane : ''well, u didn't seem alright okay!!! u jz look so down with a fake smile!!''
ben : ''hmm...how you notice i am not ok?? isn't too obvious??''
Jane : '' hmm...yea...kinda obvious!!! kekekeke!!! well, come on, what was happening??''
ben : '' i need to leave next year. will not be staying for HSFY.''
Jane (stunned face) : '' huh?? really?? why??''
ben (laughing) : '' jz 3 word u said!!! HAHA, u r funny girl!! ''
Jane ( confused expression) : '' wei, better tell me the reason!!! ''
ben: hey, why owen don't want to start the lab now?? already 15 mins gone!!!''
Jane ( stared at him angrily) : ehh...u ah...don't try to tune channel k?? u haven't tell me why!!
don't try to hide k...say out will be better dude!!
ben : well, it's family matters!!!
Jane : okay then...since you don't want to pour it out, i will not force. So, u wanna to stay here
right?? wish to achieve your dream har??
ben : Of course!!! don't ask me silly ques...i bet you know the asnwer!!!
Jane : okay...you don't climb up to my head!!! n watch out...i will bully u till the day u leave!!!
............................................................................................................................................................
These are only one part of the convo....short but interesting!!!
hmm...i felt bad for him, really!!! albeit he didn't want to pour out the reasons, yet i knew he didn't feel good to go back as he told me that foundy cert is no longer significant to him...so he started to miss classes....It's what we called discouraged isn't?? give up somethings we long for?? let go somethings we want so much?? What we long for is not what the life we have now!!! So, do we have the priority and right to choose b4 everything is jz well-planned by people around us??
Do we have the chances to hold on to something we wish so much??? or expectation will jz bring us down everytime?? ( That's something i can't understand....i jz can't understand why most of the expectations we have or we are looking forwards will jz fail us?! Then why we still expect?? )
That's question i keep on questioning myself....can't figure out why!!! Finding so hard to search for the answer.....arghhh...might jz either leave it or jz jz don't think too much??
i discover that solitude will let my thoughts and imaginations overflow....heaps n heaps of ridiculous thoughts and ques will jz pop out from my mind out of the sudden...isn't one way to grow up and understand the life's lesson ??
Hmm....daddy always say '' girl, don't think too much, things will turn the way God want it to be!!! You jz summit all to Him!!! ''
The matter of hearts, the struggling feelings, the insecure ones and the broken spirits n souls....i want to love you all with a BIG HEART!!!
''The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves the crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34 :18) =)))
well, let's all the ridiculous thoughts and missings bygones......
Phew!!! completely screwed up by my chem test today!!! i jz felt so tired and discouraged...sigh...
i am trying so hard ( try my very very best to smile everyday =) ) , yet, why i am jz felt myself broken inside?? why there's seems no remedies to cure or to jz wound it up temporarily?? If can, permanently will be great, don't you think so??
hmm...i realized so much lesson of life nowadays. I had a heart-to-heart chat these few days with my vietnam friend, ben. We chatted about dream of life, love and romance, academic life, family, friendship and etc. Well, we both are very well-acted hypocrite..we jz hide every emotion and mood to ourselves. We jz keep on trying our best to hang on the smile till the end albeit we know the result of the end is so uncertain and may not have chances to long for what we really pursue in our life.
Hmm, he was forced to going back to his home country either to continue his studies or do somethings else his parents wish him to do. He was not happy at all, i noticed. But, but, he was still hang on a charming smile all days. Yet, one day before the last physic lab we had....here comes our heart-to-heart convo....
Jane : '' why you seem down in the dumps today?? are you alright??''
ben : '' didn't i look fine?? i am fine what!!!=)) ''
Jane : ''well, u didn't seem alright okay!!! u jz look so down with a fake smile!!''
ben : ''hmm...how you notice i am not ok?? isn't too obvious??''
Jane : '' hmm...yea...kinda obvious!!! kekekeke!!! well, come on, what was happening??''
ben : '' i need to leave next year. will not be staying for HSFY.''
Jane (stunned face) : '' huh?? really?? why??''
ben (laughing) : '' jz 3 word u said!!! HAHA, u r funny girl!! ''
Jane ( confused expression) : '' wei, better tell me the reason!!! ''
ben: hey, why owen don't want to start the lab now?? already 15 mins gone!!!''
Jane ( stared at him angrily) : ehh...u ah...don't try to tune channel k?? u haven't tell me why!!
don't try to hide k...say out will be better dude!!
ben : well, it's family matters!!!
Jane : okay then...since you don't want to pour it out, i will not force. So, u wanna to stay here
right?? wish to achieve your dream har??
ben : Of course!!! don't ask me silly ques...i bet you know the asnwer!!!
Jane : okay...you don't climb up to my head!!! n watch out...i will bully u till the day u leave!!!
............................................................................................................................................................
These are only one part of the convo....short but interesting!!!
hmm...i felt bad for him, really!!! albeit he didn't want to pour out the reasons, yet i knew he didn't feel good to go back as he told me that foundy cert is no longer significant to him...so he started to miss classes....It's what we called discouraged isn't?? give up somethings we long for?? let go somethings we want so much?? What we long for is not what the life we have now!!! So, do we have the priority and right to choose b4 everything is jz well-planned by people around us??
Do we have the chances to hold on to something we wish so much??? or expectation will jz bring us down everytime?? ( That's something i can't understand....i jz can't understand why most of the expectations we have or we are looking forwards will jz fail us?! Then why we still expect?? )
That's question i keep on questioning myself....can't figure out why!!! Finding so hard to search for the answer.....arghhh...might jz either leave it or jz jz don't think too much??
i discover that solitude will let my thoughts and imaginations overflow....heaps n heaps of ridiculous thoughts and ques will jz pop out from my mind out of the sudden...isn't one way to grow up and understand the life's lesson ??
Hmm....daddy always say '' girl, don't think too much, things will turn the way God want it to be!!! You jz summit all to Him!!! ''
The matter of hearts, the struggling feelings, the insecure ones and the broken spirits n souls....i want to love you all with a BIG HEART!!!
''The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves the crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34 :18) =)))
Saturday, November 28, 2009
This is the air i breathe....
yeap!! updated!!!
what did i do recently?? Hmm, i had done my seminar presentation successfully =))) n i volunteered to finish it...hehe...i really have no ideas why i have such great courage to lift my hand up when my tutor was finding someone to volunteer on that day...It's the courage from God i think...yea..He really really walked me through a 50 mins long seminar ( i know my seminar is kinda long!!!). Coz, normally, a group only presented for not more than half an hour and mine broke the record man!!! Felt kinda relax and happy after all had accomplish with god's strength!!!
Besides, after all my buddies had gone, i felt extremely down with a leaden and slumbering heart. Yet, through heaps of ''down in the dumps'' , i had grown a lil bit (It's something i definitely can't deny.) My knowledge in the lesson of life had increased bits by bits through what i had seen and experienced from different aspects ---friendship, bgr, god's grace and blessings, family and love among bros n sisters in christ. =)) Hmmm....heaps of stories to share, be patient if u r willing to know =))
Friendship, to me is an essential to let me have a normal social life as others. Yet, good friendship is difficult to either sustain or maintain. In nz, i give thanks to God for providing lots n lots of friends who always lead me to the right way when i did something wrongly or my thoughts are too ridiculous or when i think too much!!! Thanks dor, ginny, carol and heaps of them =)) as my good listeners and asvisors!!! Hope to do life more n more together in the future!!!
Here comes to bgr, BGR is boy-girl relationship. It's jz simply mean either love or romance. I jz so amazed and impressed by the couples here who i knew. ''WOW!!! U guys really show me what is true and genuine love amongs guys and girls!!! '' i was so impressed man!!! I felt sweet for them act. Such a pleasant =))) Yea, love is much more than a feelings. It is a commitment which both parties need to compromise, bear, understand and trust each other. It's such a hard-pressed stuff for me unless my future spouse loves me lots with sincere heart and is willing to step into my life without regreting. In meanwhile, he must let me step into his as well coz love is mutual. Not one jz keep on giving in yet the other one jz keep on accepting. This will only make the giver feel tired of loving and the acceptor takes things or his/her love for granted!!! Yea, i had a lil crush on someone. But, but, but, it's jz a crush!!! Well, probability for the ''chemical stuff'' to happen is kinda kinda low i think!! Well, jz let nature do its course!!! and someTHINGS matter, yet somethings don't!! Well, jz don't think too much =))) and ''it's will be alright!!'' If avoiding or ignoring is what God wants both of us do, then what can we do much on it right?? Maybe He is not the right one for me...God will jz give me the best one!!!
God's grace and blessings, woahhh!!! Blessed to be Your Name God!!! I was so amazed on every single little things You did and are doing in my life!!! It's jz amazing to know You!! hmm..due to boredom, i recently reading ''captivating'' by John & Stasi Eldredge and ''something matter;somethings don't'' by Anna Delight Jaquith. Both books teach me how to lean oAn God more instead on leaning on ppl.
'' The things in life that seem like such a huge deal when you're going through them probably won't matter that much in the big picture of life . The thing that matters most is what God thinks about you. People will fail you, but God can't fail you. He won't fail you. ''------D.J.Anna.
Family, i miss them so much!!! eeeww....miss to have great dinner with daddy n mummy n sis!!! Miss popo and all my cousins, aunties n uncles. Miss the laughter we used to have so much every gathering on saturday night. Jz miss every moment we used together!!! Yet, i thanks God for giving me a family here as well!! albeit they all are blood-unrelated with me, yet they still adore me!!! love me as family. Kudos to my church bros n sisters, esp lg ppl!! n gorgor, thanks for your very very good patience to listen my grumbling!!! Thanks for albeit knowing my weaknesses but never ever leave me when i need u. Thanks for rousing me from my slumber. Thanks for building me up but never tear me down guys!! Love you all heaps!!! =D
Lastly, i had a very great time with those who still slacking here today after the wonderful church service!!! We go bowl today after lunch in meridian!!! HAHAHA....act, i got 2 tests next week la. But someone convince me...see the conversation below:
Josh : ( hand on my shoulder on a corner)...ahem, so when is your tests grl??
jane : hmm...next tues n thurs...sigh...
josh : okay...how much it worth then??
jane : ahhhh....20 % la!!! but i got no motivation to stdy act!!
josh : have u started yet??
jane : ahem....yea...a lil bit...not much...jz don't feel like stdying..
josh : okay...let's go bowl n relax then...find some motivations from fun!!!! but, must start stdy
after this k?
jane : yea...can play!!! woooohoooosss!!! =D
melia : we teach u do bad things act...promise us must STDY at night k ?? ( staring me with big
eyes and wicked smile!!)
Then, here we go!!! enjoyed the whole afternoon sport section together n i got a STRIKE at the end!!! and at least i passed the cut-point. OOPS...sorry jen, heading u by only few marks...=))))
So....here my summer stories!!! WOW....i managed to find happiness among the boredom!!!
well, gtg back to stdy and have quiet time b4 i sleep =))) Love to have solitude with God!!! I'm loving it !!!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
a day full of love....
hmmm....
this saturday is a day which is full of LOVE....
from the very early morning, i supposed to go to mountain climbing with a friend but i cant able to find him and i was totally lost man!!! But, he did fetch me for breakfast...thx my bro....happy to have a great chat with you...HAHAHA...
then...somethings happened but sweet!!! hmmm....SECRETTTT!!!!
but, totally touched by the song ''sometimes when we touch'' by Dan Hill...it's exactly how i feel now...i did break down and cry which is somethings unexpectedly happened, but i felt disappointed indeed after i saw something....but what can i blame for??? who can i blame then??? why should i blame??? i cry because i fear...jz fear....i did not want to speak out but tears fall....and it keeps on falling with internal pains which i scare of....i don't know what to do but i told myself not to cry anymore...n this is the last time for the rest of the life....you worth to have a better one...don't you???
then....i have a group of lovely friends who adore and love me so much......they sing to me and all are guys....are the 4 cool guys in my f5 class.....i was touched by each of them.....
~p/s weichong....thx for the courage that you be able to pour out ur lovely and deep voice to sing to me....i was touched really!!!
~p/s jensen.......thanks for your funny expressions and voice and acts which will make me laugh out loud everytime....i know u really cherish the friendship we have....i know you really love me as good sister....thx you!!!
~p/s kokwei.....ohhh...i love your cute voice while you are singing...hahaha...thx you kok wei....everytime make me feel comfort...everytime let me laugh and smile....jane really appreciate lots....really the genuinely love among peers..
~p/s guosheng (siffu).....aawwww.....i realized that you miss me so much from every songs you sing to me....aaaawwww....it's so sweet....really....i don't know that u reallly love me so much man!!! siffu...pls live and strive hard everyday.....this is what u told me b4....i hope u will also...thx siffu.....really really love n miss the moments we had b4...i know ur surrounding will be quiet n boring without my voice which always disturb u....hahahaha....
lastly...p/s i love you guys!!! really!!! not because the songs u all sang for an hours....but because the heart you all have to me....a pure love among peers n each n others....how lucky am i to have u all in my life??? how great the love is ???
i believe after the last tear fall.....there is L.O.V.E.....
''you all know i am not that strong....so you all give the greatest encouragements to stay strong every moments.....yea....i am not that strong....heart is fragile...i am tired.....tired of love...tired of expectations....tired of pressure...but, i know that behind every ''tired'' , there is a beautiful flaws---an imperfect but beautiful one!!!''
this saturday is a day which is full of LOVE....
from the very early morning, i supposed to go to mountain climbing with a friend but i cant able to find him and i was totally lost man!!! But, he did fetch me for breakfast...thx my bro....happy to have a great chat with you...HAHAHA...
then...somethings happened but sweet!!! hmmm....SECRETTTT!!!!
but, totally touched by the song ''sometimes when we touch'' by Dan Hill...it's exactly how i feel now...i did break down and cry which is somethings unexpectedly happened, but i felt disappointed indeed after i saw something....but what can i blame for??? who can i blame then??? why should i blame??? i cry because i fear...jz fear....i did not want to speak out but tears fall....and it keeps on falling with internal pains which i scare of....i don't know what to do but i told myself not to cry anymore...n this is the last time for the rest of the life....you worth to have a better one...don't you???
then....i have a group of lovely friends who adore and love me so much......they sing to me and all are guys....are the 4 cool guys in my f5 class.....i was touched by each of them.....
~p/s weichong....thx for the courage that you be able to pour out ur lovely and deep voice to sing to me....i was touched really!!!
~p/s jensen.......thanks for your funny expressions and voice and acts which will make me laugh out loud everytime....i know u really cherish the friendship we have....i know you really love me as good sister....thx you!!!
~p/s kokwei.....ohhh...i love your cute voice while you are singing...hahaha...thx you kok wei....everytime make me feel comfort...everytime let me laugh and smile....jane really appreciate lots....really the genuinely love among peers..
~p/s guosheng (siffu).....aawwww.....i realized that you miss me so much from every songs you sing to me....aaaawwww....it's so sweet....really....i don't know that u reallly love me so much man!!! siffu...pls live and strive hard everyday.....this is what u told me b4....i hope u will also...thx siffu.....really really love n miss the moments we had b4...i know ur surrounding will be quiet n boring without my voice which always disturb u....hahahaha....
lastly...p/s i love you guys!!! really!!! not because the songs u all sang for an hours....but because the heart you all have to me....a pure love among peers n each n others....how lucky am i to have u all in my life??? how great the love is ???
i believe after the last tear fall.....there is L.O.V.E.....
''you all know i am not that strong....so you all give the greatest encouragements to stay strong every moments.....yea....i am not that strong....heart is fragile...i am tired.....tired of love...tired of expectations....tired of pressure...but, i know that behind every ''tired'' , there is a beautiful flaws---an imperfect but beautiful one!!!''
Thursday, June 25, 2009
when
''when i prepare and learnt to love everything......your selfishness hurts me deeply....it's so realistic now.......yet i cant involve the past i had before......''
Thursday, May 21, 2009
PU1B2
i heard that tmrw teacher might suffle our class again.....don't want la!!! super no mood!!! i love my class PU1B2.....REALLY LOVE IT!!! Pls let me stay for my last week in stk....pls god!!! i want to enjoy staying , studying , chit-chatting, rushing to lecture hall, eating lunch, complainting about teachers who are irresponsible, get scolding from PA and CHE teacher, sharing, doing experiments, arguing, making jokes, sleeping and even going toilet with them, makes me really happy and joyful...although 2 weeks...but we all seems know each other for many years already!!!
Anyway,my dear PU1B2~~I LOVE YOU ALL!!! I WILL MISS YOU ALL!!!REALLY!!!
Anyway,my dear PU1B2~~I LOVE YOU ALL!!! I WILL MISS YOU ALL!!!REALLY!!!
Monday, May 4, 2009
I will miss them...
jensen & jane
jane & liwen(my best sis)
Derrick seems like still in his own dream...haha
hihi....with a loving couple....
they say i seems like closer to Jensen...'oops..sry kokwei, iam not voluntary!'
All of us.....hooray!!!
Yeah!!! all pretty girls....haha
oh no!the flash light too strong la!make my eyes close!!! angry!!
jxi~jane~najihah~fafa
wooo...they were so concentrated....hihi..i surreptitiously took their photo!
'BEAUTY AND THE BEAST'
The sampat guy's birthday!!! 
jxi...u didn't know got a person took ur photo meh? 
in KFC
we were enjoying our lunch....
haha, we were having fun in Jensen's birthday,hooray!!! however, i was feeling sad on that day coz it maybe was the last time we managed to gather together...when we were taking pictures, my tears almost fell down, i m so unwilling to leave them. Liwen suddenly shouted 'Jane, don't cry!!!We would be ur "shoes" wherever u go! Our heart would follow you!!!' I was touched by her words, my tears dropped disobediently. They knew i was a 'crying baby' who loved to cry in any situation. I was extremely gratified that they made me laugh lastly...hahaha
I will miss them......
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