God, what you want me to do??

''God, what you want me to do??''
Sighhhh.....what a week man!! a busiest week ever which i have to go through.....
who say i'm not scared??
who say no more tears means i'm strong enough??
who say i'm superwomen??

No...ALL WRONG!!
So tired...
so broken...
so weak....
till i have not been able to sit and take a proper rest.
till i have not been able to spend some time with Him.....

so many obstacles,
challenges go and come again,
go and come again, even getting BIGGER and bigger each time...
BIGGER than all them??
Don't you know it's so hard??
i choose not to complain...not even a word or grumble out of my mouth...
i choose to appreciate...to continue...to hang on...to live for Him...

So, God, can You pls tell me what You want me to do?? what am i fighting so hard for??
what is the purpose for sending me here but failing in everything?? what am i going to do for You?? So muchhhh ques juggling in my mind....so mucchhh....

Yet, You tell me to have faith in You with actions. coz with faith but no action, the faith is dead!!

I know my redemeer lives....coz He let me live.....