flatties = family ?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....i'm HAPPY today!!!!
We have a really nice and interesting talk during dinner today :)
Ah Ha?? we're gonna to sing ''Steven is gonna has a GF, Steven is gonna has a GF!!!''
Why we're so excited about it?? because we care!!! we're a big family!!!

Hmm, talk bout love, romance and relationship....
everyone has different opinions and perpectives...
But, everyone care about the how long the relationship is going to sustain??
How well you know about the special girl or guy??
How sure can you promised that you'll be faithful, so does she/he??

Those are the first part of questions everyone's mind pop out.
Then, Kim and Wei (who are those in a relationship) start to teach steven many kinds of methods to ask the girl out...or might jz bring her home and we're all gonna have a glance on her :)) HAHAHAHAHA.....

Why i said that we're like a family, sometimes more that siblings??
coz,
~when some of them wanna to go out for a date, they'll ask opinions from all of us on what kinds n colours of clothes should he/she wear in order to look as perfect as possible. (done by Wei)
~we share the happy or sad things which had happened during the day when dinner.
~we comfort, encourage and support each other during exam and test period.
~we go library to study together and get groceries as well.
~we play boardgames and say jokes together.
~we cook for each other.
~we care for each other in the ways of when we came home, who we're going out with and where and do what...
~we fight with each other sometimes, esp me and wei =)
~we are like a big family!!!

I really can't wait to create more n MORE memories and happy moments with you guys!!!
I am loved by those ppl (kim, sal, ivy, wei and ste).....
coz i'm the youngest!!!

N thank you Thank You n THANK YOU, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!!! =))

This is the air i breathe....

yeap!! updated!!!
what did i do recently?? Hmm, i had done my seminar presentation successfully =))) n i volunteered to finish it...hehe...i really have no ideas why i have such great courage to lift my hand up when my tutor was finding someone to volunteer on that day...It's the courage from God i think...yea..He really really walked me through a 50 mins long seminar ( i know my seminar is kinda long!!!). Coz, normally, a group only presented for not more than half an hour and mine broke the record man!!! Felt kinda relax and happy after all had accomplish with god's strength!!!

Besides, after all my buddies had gone, i felt extremely down with a leaden and slumbering heart. Yet, through heaps of ''down in the dumps'' , i had grown a lil bit (It's something i definitely can't deny.) My knowledge in the lesson of life had increased bits by bits through what i had seen and experienced from different aspects ---friendship, bgr, god's grace and blessings, family and love among bros n sisters in christ. =)) Hmmm....heaps of stories to share, be patient if u r willing to know =))

Friendship, to me is an essential to let me have a normal social life as others. Yet, good friendship is difficult to either sustain or maintain. In nz, i give thanks to God for providing lots n lots of friends who always lead me to the right way when i did something wrongly or my thoughts are too ridiculous or when i think too much!!! Thanks dor, ginny, carol and heaps of them =)) as my good listeners and asvisors!!! Hope to do life more n more together in the future!!!

Here comes to bgr, BGR is boy-girl relationship. It's jz simply mean either love or romance. I jz so amazed and impressed by the couples here who i knew. ''WOW!!! U guys really show me what is true and genuine love amongs guys and girls!!! '' i was so impressed man!!! I felt sweet for them act. Such a pleasant =))) Yea, love is much more than a feelings. It is a commitment which both parties need to compromise, bear, understand and trust each other. It's such a hard-pressed stuff for me unless my future spouse loves me lots with sincere heart and is willing to step into my life without regreting. In meanwhile, he must let me step into his as well coz love is mutual. Not one jz keep on giving in yet the other one jz keep on accepting. This will only make the giver feel tired of loving and the acceptor takes things or his/her love for granted!!! Yea, i had a lil crush on someone. But, but, but, it's jz a crush!!! Well, probability for the ''chemical stuff'' to happen is kinda kinda low i think!! Well, jz let nature do its course!!! and someTHINGS matter, yet somethings don't!! Well, jz don't think too much =))) and ''it's will be alright!!'' If avoiding or ignoring is what God wants both of us do, then what can we do much on it right?? Maybe He is not the right one for me...God will jz give me the best one!!!

God's grace and blessings, woahhh!!! Blessed to be Your Name God!!! I was so amazed on every single little things You did and are doing in my life!!! It's jz amazing to know You!! hmm..due to boredom, i recently reading ''captivating'' by John & Stasi Eldredge and ''something matter;somethings don't'' by Anna Delight Jaquith. Both books teach me how to lean oAn God more instead on leaning on ppl.

'' The things in life that seem like such a huge deal when you're going through them probably won't matter that much in the big picture of life . The thing that matters most is what God thinks about you. People will fail you, but God can't fail you. He won't fail you. ''------D.J.Anna.

Family, i miss them so much!!! eeeww....miss to have great dinner with daddy n mummy n sis!!! Miss popo and all my cousins, aunties n uncles. Miss the laughter we used to have so much every gathering on saturday night. Jz miss every moment we used together!!! Yet, i thanks God for giving me a family here as well!! albeit they all are blood-unrelated with me, yet they still adore me!!! love me as family. Kudos to my church bros n sisters, esp lg ppl!! n gorgor, thanks for your very very good patience to listen my grumbling!!! Thanks for albeit knowing my weaknesses but never ever leave me when i need u. Thanks for rousing me from my slumber. Thanks for building me up but never tear me down guys!! Love you all heaps!!! =D

Lastly, i had a very great time with those who still slacking here today after the wonderful church service!!! We go bowl today after lunch in meridian!!! HAHAHA....act, i got 2 tests next week la. But someone convince me...see the conversation below:

Josh : ( hand on my shoulder on a corner)...ahem, so when is your tests grl??
jane : hmm...next tues n thurs...sigh...
josh : okay...how much it worth then??
jane : ahhhh....20 % la!!! but i got no motivation to stdy act!!
josh : have u started yet??
jane : ahem....yea...a lil bit...not much...jz don't feel like stdying..
josh : okay...let's go bowl n relax then...find some motivations from fun!!!! but, must start stdy
after this k?
jane : yea...can play!!! woooohoooosss!!! =D
melia : we teach u do bad things act...promise us must STDY at night k ?? ( staring me with big
eyes and wicked smile!!)
Then, here we go!!! enjoyed the whole afternoon sport section together n i got a STRIKE at the end!!! and at least i passed the cut-point. OOPS...sorry jen, heading u by only few marks...=))))

So....here my summer stories!!! WOW....i managed to find happiness among the boredom!!!
well, gtg back to stdy and have quiet time b4 i sleep =))) Love to have solitude with God!!! I'm loving it !!!

time to go.....

yea......2 more hours to go to airport and begin my journey back home!! hmmm.....
i am trying to ask myself '' girl, are you ready to be backed??? are you??'' , i did scare and fear.....
but, i really have no ideas why there is no peace in my heart when the time is nearer and nearer....i felt like blogging coz no ones to talk and share with or i don't how to pour it out in words......so i can feel the good and bad thoughts are fighting with each other right now.....isn't something cool???

how can i really describe the mixture of complicated feelings to be backed this time??? i kinda have a little bit of excitement yet a feeling of chicken-hearted outweights it. Can anyone tell me why??? why there is no peace in heart??? it's so strange!!! even me, myself can't able to find out the reasons......fear?? stress?? nervous??

yea....what can really attract and comfort me now is the FOOD in my hometown.....HAHAHAHA!!!! n my warm bed and toilets too!!! n mummy, daddy n sis as well!!! really wish to have a good chat with them as i always used to......esp my sis.....HEHEHE!!!
wish to play piano that i long time didn't touch with.......hehehehe.....n wish to see my very cute nephew who always sing to me!!! (yupe!!! i am comforting myself with my very great imaginations now!!!)

fear to face reality??? fear to hear lots and lots of advices??? fear to be nagged and nagged??? fear to be criticized??? fear to make decisions or accept the changings??? fear to encounter with ppl?? hmmmmmm.........don't be so pressurized girl!!!!! be happy...and refreshed from the holidays coz things may get tougher and tougher as time goes....no ones going to accompany the next sem.....everyone is leaving soon.....sigh!!! ( history of loneliness might be displayed again!!! me don't want to face if it is possible!!!)

hmmmm.....stop thinking......shoo you the negative thoughts which my emo-ness and depression may arise!!!

p.s be good with dad and mum....show how much you had grown.....
p.s eat all FOOD you miss so much!!!
p.s don't be so stressed!!!
p.s be strong to face the horrible and lonely next sem after the brief holidays!!!
p.s GO TO BED NOW AND STOP THINKING!!!

(peace....peace.....p.s come to my heart now!!! i need you to calm me down......)