This is the air i breathe....

yeap!! updated!!!
what did i do recently?? Hmm, i had done my seminar presentation successfully =))) n i volunteered to finish it...hehe...i really have no ideas why i have such great courage to lift my hand up when my tutor was finding someone to volunteer on that day...It's the courage from God i think...yea..He really really walked me through a 50 mins long seminar ( i know my seminar is kinda long!!!). Coz, normally, a group only presented for not more than half an hour and mine broke the record man!!! Felt kinda relax and happy after all had accomplish with god's strength!!!

Besides, after all my buddies had gone, i felt extremely down with a leaden and slumbering heart. Yet, through heaps of ''down in the dumps'' , i had grown a lil bit (It's something i definitely can't deny.) My knowledge in the lesson of life had increased bits by bits through what i had seen and experienced from different aspects ---friendship, bgr, god's grace and blessings, family and love among bros n sisters in christ. =)) Hmmm....heaps of stories to share, be patient if u r willing to know =))

Friendship, to me is an essential to let me have a normal social life as others. Yet, good friendship is difficult to either sustain or maintain. In nz, i give thanks to God for providing lots n lots of friends who always lead me to the right way when i did something wrongly or my thoughts are too ridiculous or when i think too much!!! Thanks dor, ginny, carol and heaps of them =)) as my good listeners and asvisors!!! Hope to do life more n more together in the future!!!

Here comes to bgr, BGR is boy-girl relationship. It's jz simply mean either love or romance. I jz so amazed and impressed by the couples here who i knew. ''WOW!!! U guys really show me what is true and genuine love amongs guys and girls!!! '' i was so impressed man!!! I felt sweet for them act. Such a pleasant =))) Yea, love is much more than a feelings. It is a commitment which both parties need to compromise, bear, understand and trust each other. It's such a hard-pressed stuff for me unless my future spouse loves me lots with sincere heart and is willing to step into my life without regreting. In meanwhile, he must let me step into his as well coz love is mutual. Not one jz keep on giving in yet the other one jz keep on accepting. This will only make the giver feel tired of loving and the acceptor takes things or his/her love for granted!!! Yea, i had a lil crush on someone. But, but, but, it's jz a crush!!! Well, probability for the ''chemical stuff'' to happen is kinda kinda low i think!! Well, jz let nature do its course!!! and someTHINGS matter, yet somethings don't!! Well, jz don't think too much =))) and ''it's will be alright!!'' If avoiding or ignoring is what God wants both of us do, then what can we do much on it right?? Maybe He is not the right one for me...God will jz give me the best one!!!

God's grace and blessings, woahhh!!! Blessed to be Your Name God!!! I was so amazed on every single little things You did and are doing in my life!!! It's jz amazing to know You!! hmm..due to boredom, i recently reading ''captivating'' by John & Stasi Eldredge and ''something matter;somethings don't'' by Anna Delight Jaquith. Both books teach me how to lean oAn God more instead on leaning on ppl.

'' The things in life that seem like such a huge deal when you're going through them probably won't matter that much in the big picture of life . The thing that matters most is what God thinks about you. People will fail you, but God can't fail you. He won't fail you. ''------D.J.Anna.

Family, i miss them so much!!! eeeww....miss to have great dinner with daddy n mummy n sis!!! Miss popo and all my cousins, aunties n uncles. Miss the laughter we used to have so much every gathering on saturday night. Jz miss every moment we used together!!! Yet, i thanks God for giving me a family here as well!! albeit they all are blood-unrelated with me, yet they still adore me!!! love me as family. Kudos to my church bros n sisters, esp lg ppl!! n gorgor, thanks for your very very good patience to listen my grumbling!!! Thanks for albeit knowing my weaknesses but never ever leave me when i need u. Thanks for rousing me from my slumber. Thanks for building me up but never tear me down guys!! Love you all heaps!!! =D

Lastly, i had a very great time with those who still slacking here today after the wonderful church service!!! We go bowl today after lunch in meridian!!! HAHAHA....act, i got 2 tests next week la. But someone convince me...see the conversation below:

Josh : ( hand on my shoulder on a corner)...ahem, so when is your tests grl??
jane : hmm...next tues n thurs...sigh...
josh : okay...how much it worth then??
jane : ahhhh....20 % la!!! but i got no motivation to stdy act!!
josh : have u started yet??
jane : ahem....yea...a lil bit...not much...jz don't feel like stdying..
josh : okay...let's go bowl n relax then...find some motivations from fun!!!! but, must start stdy
after this k?
jane : yea...can play!!! woooohoooosss!!! =D
melia : we teach u do bad things act...promise us must STDY at night k ?? ( staring me with big
eyes and wicked smile!!)
Then, here we go!!! enjoyed the whole afternoon sport section together n i got a STRIKE at the end!!! and at least i passed the cut-point. OOPS...sorry jen, heading u by only few marks...=))))

So....here my summer stories!!! WOW....i managed to find happiness among the boredom!!!
well, gtg back to stdy and have quiet time b4 i sleep =))) Love to have solitude with God!!! I'm loving it !!!