Sometimes, it can be as simple as just like that!!

This song reminds me of you in the late night. Reminds me that how hard you are learning to sing this song as you like it that much too!!! ''As in i'm in paradise with your presence'' is the meaning of the whole song. Happiness is as simple as just with the presence of your loved one. Sometimes, he/she might not be yours, yet he/she is in your heart. The presence of love deep in the heart. Yet, so hard for me to believe that i will be loved, i will be cherished, i will be adored, So HARD!!! Thus, not to let myself to have the time to think too much, to hope for love, to search its presence, to not to be broken into pieces again, i choose to close my heart for now. Not the time ready to love someone, no right one appear for now, not the correct period to fall for someone, not enough courage to open my heart again. I might admire, yet it's just admire, not love. Anyway, God will provide when the time comes and this is the only thing i believe in love.

I guess i miss you again when there's no one else tricks me as you always do. All alone is a little bit of creepy i reckon. Anyhow, Off to chch and welly from tmrw!!! A big 'YEAH!!!'' for that!!! N thanks dear Lord for being still good to me!! :)

Tears in heaven

I don't why my tears burst out when i hear this song. Like always, he starts to learn how to play this song with guitar. I was nagging at him again because of my terrible mood swing. I was wondering why he loves this so much so badly. Everday, he learn to play a little phase of the song. Actually, his playing is not that bad and annoying, just maybe i am overwhelming with heaps and heaps of burdens and anxieties. Sorry for always bearing my weaknesses.

Haha, i realise his playing on first three notes ''da da da'' is kinda similar with Eric Clapton. Woahhh....haha!!!

I will pick up this song with guitar during holidays when all of you guys leave, i promise!!!

(would you know my name if i saw you in heaven??
would you be the same if i saw you in heaven??? )

i am terrified of changes and leavings....i can't handle...
Yet, people come and go and this is the fact, which something you and i can't change
even though we are so keen to, still, it can't be changed.
sometimes, i really wish that we're all blood-related. Really wish that we're the biological bro and sis. And it's a wish which will never ever gonna to come true.
( Just a small dream from a little girl.)


Anyhow, thank you for always by my side, indeed, Thank You.

Footprints in the sand

You walk with me,
footprint in the sand,
and help me understand where i'm going,
You walk with me,
when i was all alone,
with so much unknown along the way,
and i heart You say,
i promise you i always there,
when your heart is filled with sorrow and despair,
i'll carry you when you need a friend,
you will find my foodprint in the sand.....

All are going to start, yet i am still unprepared well...felt like so broken..
Don't you heard a story about sand before?? When you hold the sand too tight on your palm, it will flow away from palm more easily. It could be said that holding onto all this too tightly is taking its toll. For instance, tightly holding a relationship, a dream, a past and a future may make you lost all these eventually.

''why? why holding onto all this may make you lost them lastly??'' Ans: in relationship, holding each other too tightly might cause both parties lose their own space and time to reflect themselves. Thus, as time flies, both parties discover that their love has no more space to grow and eventually ends up with HURT. Secondly, in a dream, if we hold too tightly in a particular dream, we might have too high expectations as stress is all around us. Slowly, stress might become the main killer. Thirdly, if we keep on looking or reminiscencing the past either a happy one or a broken one, we might not have the courage or willingness to move on. Afterall, we are still living in the past but not present.

So, need to always remind myself that i am sitting on the front seat, don't bother what's the back n sides going on. Do what i need to do is the most significant task. Tmrw is a start for me as uni starts, there are gonna to be nearly 1500 ppl......Yet, always have a pair of footprint accompany me to walk through the journey.

(To me, i fear, as 1500 ppl seems like a HUGE stone which is gonna to roll to me, to attack me........i have to break the stone and bring back the victory on hands....jiayou!!!)

david cook...

If can, i want to get it =))

jz love it so so so much!!!

maybe is the design of the disc itself make me fall in love with it,

Yet, it could be said so that those songs are nice to listen to.....

Songs which may probably

reflect your moods,

enlighten up your days,

comfort your pains,

lull you to sleep,

accompany you through ups and downs.....

Yea....uni life gonna to start very soon...

days will be buzy yet contented i reckon...

might go for the audition for worship team....

will consider and pray about it first of course...

i will work it out =D

God, thanks for giving me heaps of wonderful friends here who i can pour out my heart to...who will support me in everything by building up my faith, who reminds me what to do and what's not to, who advices me what should i do in this very tough year........Thanks God for the bonding of relationship among flatties which i found so hard for me initially. Eventually, things are getting better each day. I start to improve myself in listening and understanding the slang of NZ they are using =D It was great really!!! i am thankful for blessing me with caring ppl all around me, God....I love you!!! =D

MAKE ME OVER......

After a hard day of a tough week, i was so tired....was really really tired of keep myself living in the past. I wondered why i can't get rid of the past and move on to the future. I was jealous about everything esp when they are having fun or they care about each other and i am miles away from them. Sighhhh....to get out from the past, let the bygones be bygones, i did have to make some changes. (sorry about hiding some of my friends in fb) coz i really can't concentrate but thinking of the past, daydreaming about the past every single night. So yay, starting from today, i am trying to hide as many as i need in order to make myself get out of the past which will never ever return to me or can't ve regained. N starting from today, i want myself to stop those jealousy n envious of what kluang peeps doing or having. The love n care they had among themselves had already forsaken me long time ago, no use for me to waiting n waiting till losing myself for jz to squeeze into a little corner of their minds...( sorry if i offended anyone....) i jz felt like there are problems with myself and jz not alright in some aspects....so sorry bout those offences...

It is jz a major problem which i am facing for months. So, gonna to let it go...n pls go away....i don't want to expect anymore till make myself suffer n lose hope....so yay...gonna to come out of my comfort zone this time!!!! as this year gonna to be a promising year i believe =)) there are lots of dunners' peeps around me...SO NO FEAR AH GIRL!!!!

AH HA!! 3 MORE...3 MORE...i will try my very best to finish it =)))

and still i wanna to give thanks to my dear news reporter who always updates me (jensen), the one who always first to give me everything and listen to me patiently n fills my mailbox with lots of encouraging messages (mr ea guosheng), someone who wanna go mountain climbing n have roti canai, 3 layers tea, fishball mee and chit-chattings with ( Bro JJ), my advisor n very good friend (liwen), my faithful driver who always drives me crazy everywhere when i go back, let's race with your mini babe!!! ( vincent che), my blur-ish buddy n sis in christ (sweetie josie) and lotss...heapss...loadsss ppl =)))

Terima kasih banyak-banyak...

I will be missing you guys......

AH HA...i love the last lines of this song which has been sung with low tune n voice...feel kinda sexy n cheesy....HAHAHA )

pull me in, take me out, make me over!!!

live like we're dying...

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up

we're hiding behind skin
that's too tough

how come we don't say I love you enough

till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come

we could make a feast from these crumbs

and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun

so if your life flashed before you what would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start

lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here

this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it

every second counts on a clock that's tickin'gotta live like we're dying

We only got86 400 seconds in a day toturn it all around or throw it all away

we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say

gotta live like we're dying

2nd phrase~~

And if your plane fell out of the skies

who would you call with your last goodbye

should be so careful who we let fall out our lives

so when we long for absolution there'll be no one on the line

Yeah... gotta startlookin at the hand of the time we've been given here

this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it

every second counts on a clock that's tickin'gotta live like we're dying

We only got86 400 seconds in a day toturn it all around or throw it all away

we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say

gotta live like we're dyingLike we're dying oh-- like we're dying [x2]

Hmm..i was so attached to this song nowadays. It's jz pretty meaningful and the music is catchy n there are raps in some parts. So yay!!!! the song teaches us that to live like we are dying. So, we will start to appreciate n cherish what we had n are having. n of course, live like we are dying motivates me to move on to things which i haven't accomplished or achieved. N definitely push me to the extreme to finish up the stuffs which i need to or i long for =))) Of course, it's also emphasized on time treasuring. Hence, i will not waste my time in daydreaming for the future or jz emo-ing in looking back the past. ''Do not look back.And do not dream about the future, either.It will neither give you back the past not satisfy your other daydreams. You duty, your reward, your destiny are here and NOW!!! ''

It is a kinda good song to be reccommended when you are in exam or you cannot really find out the purpose of life or the ways to deal with your life. So yay!!! Let's live like we're dying from now!!! NOW!!! =)))

Every flower must grow through dirt.....

I want to share 3 songs which inspire n encourage me lots these days...

1st-- Note To God by charice ( which Joan posted on fb yesterday, n i was so touched by this song till i kept on humming it in school today. This song seems like a prayer i utter to God always since everything changed n went wrong on the road i am walking. Every morning n night, i always jot a small note to God, asking Him to strengthen me the whole day n appreciate that i have one more day to be alived. When i stand at the end of the road, his tenderness always reach out to me through the care which is given by family n peers. Somethings in life never have a clue, somethings in life we can't do by our own, Yet, once u submit everything to God, things will work out in a special way that u never ever thought of =))




2nd--Potter's hand by hillsongs
i don't why i love this song so much n yea this song is meaningful. I am in a potter's hand who mould me, shape me, change me and crafted me into Your plan since You decided to send me here n away from my comfort zone. Eventually, i still choose to give all of my life to Your hands no matter how tough the journey will going to be. Here, pls assure me that You will hold me, guide me, lead me and walk beside me in this tough journey. I believe in my potter's hand it will be a promising journey n year =))





3rd--Take my hand and walk by The Kry (which i knew from jen's blog)

This song inspire me heaps after every experience n hardship which i had walked through in my growth. Don't live in the past cause yesterday's gone, wishing memories would last coz i'm afraid to carry on. I don't know what's comin' but I know the one who holds tomorrow. This song is like someone who is talking face to face with me, remind me that there always has Someone who take my hand and walk with me....awwww...i love this song =))) ( wish to have a duet of this song with my future life partner in our wedding day) HAHAHA...will be sweet n meaningful coz we take each other hands n walk in God's blessing n path to pursue the happiness =))






Here comes the lyrics of the last song =)))

I know there are times
your dreams turn to dust
you wonder as you cry
why it has to hurt so much
give Me all your sadness
someday you will know the reason why
with a child-like heart
simply put your trust in Me
CHORUS:Take My hand and walk where I lead
keep your eyes on Me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're scared of the unknown
take My hand and walk

Don't live in the past
cause yesterday's gone
wishing memories would last
you're afraid to carry on
you don't know what's comin'
but you know the one who holds tomorrow
I will be your guide
take you through the night
if you keep your eyes on Me
Take my hand and walk where I lead
Keep your eyes on me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're afraid of the unknown
take my hand and walk where I lead
you will never be alone
faith is to be sure of what you hope for
and the evidence of things unseen
so take my hand and walk
Just like a childholdings daddy's hand
don't let go of mineyou know you can't stand
on your own
(repeat chorus)

Words by Jean-Luc Lajoie and Yves Lajoie
Music by Jean-Luc Lajoie

Who will u fight for?? n who will fight for u after all??

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for

p/s : Is love worth to fight for?? then who will u fight for?? n who will fight for u after all??

my ans : Only Him ---The Above One

believe.....

HAHAHA......LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!
The reason that i love it as this song can totally describe my life now...
i still BELIEVE n Believe there is always beautiful no matter how deep i fall,
every challenge, hurt and hardship are the sources to push me up,
and to build and mould me to someone who can be able to paddle the boat by myself with the strenght of His in the blue ocean there is no end!!!

This song can mainly describe how my life is going on now....
n how much i am growing each day!!!
is a simple song but is a nice n meaningful one indeed!!!

Will try my best to live for the best of today!!! passionately, full of life n enthusiasm, n be real n honest to myself n The Above One!!!

here is the lyric....hehehe

突然觉得我只是一个人 有点孤单浅浅的忧郁 我不知道明天会不会很美丽 虽然今天天很蓝 而云很白 风很凉 今天日记空白没有关系 不必每件事情都在意 不想工作 不想困扰自己 不必刻意想你 该是我的总会来 就算挑战 我不走开 一点点你的微笑 已经让我觉得温暖 我还不懂坚持 正好让我 学会去爱 我曾经看见困难 变得胆小 不够勇敢 但还是要相信 相信感觉 相信简单 有一天 等我懂得事实也许更会幸福 至少现在让我去相信 哦 我还是会相信 相信感觉 相信简单

After The Last Tear Falls

yea....it's a very meaningful and inspiring song which i was deeply touched when i heard it in the Elim cafe service 4.....HAHAHAHA.....enjoy it!!!

remember '' everything, every moments, everytime, every incidents, every heartbrokens, every pains and hurts, every sufferings and struggles, every disappointments, every rejections, every failures,every ups and downs......AFTER THE LAST TEAR FALL....THERE IS L0V3 !!!''