save the man???

A line caught my interest today after i was watching Dr Phils during lunch....

''Are you trying to save your man or the man who you expect him to be ??''

Good question to think about :)
sometimes, it does confuse us. Are we love the man's heart or we just fall for someone who we need him to help us in everything and just so our lives become easier?? or we love just because he is the ideal one who has fulfilled all the qualities, preferences and conditions?? we love because he is the perfect one??

To me, No!!!
i rather fall for the fat and ugly man with a genuine heart, yet not the good-looking one who act superficially. It's the matters of heart, not how good the one is.

Thus, think about it :) it's good to remind me to look for the heart but not my expectations towards man, so do you. :)

The 3 words...

''I LOVE YOU'',

these 3 words can mean a lots to some people,

yet it could jz be joke to some,

still, to me, i'm terrified of it,

terrified of either hearing or saying.

There are couples that commit to saying it to each other every single day, no matter what happens. On contrary, some only say it if they really, really mean it. They take the words very seriously and will refrain from saying them just as a response. There are some extreme ways of dealing with these three powerful words.

To me, i would say that i'm entirely terrified of these 3 words. I'm jz at the somewhere near the end of the extreme and see these words in fear and insecurity. Neither would i throw them around willy-nilly nor spur it out. And, it could be completely deleted or erased from my mind.

I'm jz don't really have the trust and faith in love or romance as promises always fail, expectations never come true, the feelings towards each other say bye, betrayal, unfaithfulness, changes of characteristics and many many reasons. Those pulls me down from believing it, takes away the attractions towards opposite sex, snatches away the feelings of being in loved and kills my heart till only bitterness left. So, for now, i'm not even want to fall in love to somebody and not even want to be loved. And, i don't think i'm really, indeed ready for it.

Thus, single always win, it never lie, never make you falls apart, never make your heart broken and never ever make you bitter!!!

Somehow, my mum told me, bible says '' These people will wait until they're ready to walk down aisle with someone before uttering these three words'' (2John 1:1-13). And, i believe that as much as i agree with this verse. So, wait until you're ready, then say, commit and sustain to suppress all till the very very end. God will definitely smile at you and say ''You guys make it!! well done!!! :) ''

just like them!!!! :)

onions...

Life like an onion,
when you peel a layer of it,

sometimes you weep...

After weeping,
desperado onion soup,
might be the result...

That's life!!!
we weep,
Then, we stand up,
we fight for it,
victories come as good food...

Unashamed

well, after a tough week, after the first hubs test, after all and all, i finally have time for You, Father Lord. (i know that was wrong as i should have time for Him everyday). SIGH.....I am lost in His track as i kept walking on my own. But, church yesterday was really great and awesome one. After a very tiring week, once again, i put down and surrender all to Him that night. My tears fall as i set free from Him after all and all. That's the tears of happiness and gratefulness.

I am grateful that You are here to walk with me everyday.
I am grateful that You deliver awesome people to speak to me in my life along this journey.
I am grateful that what You give are always more than enough.
I am grateful that You make me different from the past.
I am grateful that You are the only lover of my soul.
I am grateful that You love me so much so badly.

There is a cry in my heart,
There is a thirst for discipline,
There is a hunger for things that are deeper.
There is a yearn for peace and calm to reach its victories.




Unashamed by starfield~~

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

Hmm, this song hits my heart and life.
a song which make me reflects myself...
why should i be ashamed of myself who is being sent here??
why should i be ashamed of God who i believe so much??
why should i be ashamed of the place that He sent me??
why couldn't i be unashamed of where i am standing and how far that i had gone through??
why couldn't i be unashamed of what i am doing and pursuing so badly for??


well, these are the questions in my mind for now.
i know i should be UNASHAMED that i am His lovely daughter =))
easter holidays coming, easter camp coming,
time for refreshing after all n all....
time for me to find back the first love to Him =))

Who will u fight for?? n who will fight for u after all??

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for

p/s : Is love worth to fight for?? then who will u fight for?? n who will fight for u after all??

my ans : Only Him ---The Above One

没感情

如果人是没感情的动物，那会不会过得更好呢？
因为没感情，所以不懂受伤的感觉，
因为没感情，所以不懂想念的心情，
因为没感情，所以不懂爱人的滋味，
因为没感情，所以不懂被爱的美好，
因为没感情，所以不懂关心的重要，
因为没感情，所以不会为他人担心，
因为没感情，所以不会为他人哭泣，
因会没感情，所以不懂什么是幸福，

没感情，让人心疼，同时，让人觉得可怕。。。。

haha...my musing....what if a person who is without feelings?? how he/she going to live normally?? hmmm...i wonder...is creepy though!!! But, to me, everyone is trying so hard to hide n keep their feelings n relationship coz they don't want ppl who care about them to worry..are we keep on growing to be strong each day?? or we had already grown so much??

No matter what happened.....we jz choose to be brave instead of weak....aren't we growing???

p/s : i miss him....but i know he want me to be brave.....

live dead ???

sigh......SIGH......
the first day of the second sementer was really really really SIGH!!!!
OKAYS...i was totally late to the first lecture...
then, i got my new timetable but....
my teacher are all SIGH....not really good ones.....all will jz make me sleep in class!!!

my expectations fail....
the whole uni seems like a dead tree which is totally lack of water and sunshine....it is jz too too bored n quiet.....actually, i was backed with a cheerful and excited heart....and hope so much that some of the boring teacher will not teach me....but the results was totally opposite....sigh.....

yea....all of us were like live dead zombies walking in the rain with chilly wind....no energy at all!!!
Hey guys....where was the strong energy you all used to have??? where was it gone?? WHERE??
Hmmmp.....i am a living entity with dead soul now.....no more excitement, no more laughters, no more yellings, no more '' byebyesssss'' to be heard from friends, no more '' How are you??'' to be asked, no more expectations.....it is jz too DEAD!!!

i was listening to the topic of '' seminar presentation'' the whole day.....n i felt stress!!!! There are 2 main assignments for english ''research essay'' n '' seminar presentation''....sigh.....STRESS!!! n i felt that the foundation building seems like haunted house ey, it is so quiet n all the tutors are missing....so scary....i was waiting outside one of the room alone...n it is the last room of the whole roll....hmm....so scary ey.....i miss those noisy sounds which everyone always waiting n chatting.....i miss the walking sounds of each n everyone....i miss the door opening sound which always jz too hard n loud....i miss i miss i miss everything!!!!

raining....
with an umbrella.....
walking on the quiet pace....
pushing by the strong wind.....

each step....
with a pair of inactive legs....
walking in the loneliness precisely....
strong wind broke the only umbrella....

accompaniments.....
with an expecting heart......
walking n walking still no ones.....
wind destroys the weak body cruelly....

physically....
with a strong immunity initially.....
walking with strong body which defeated all.....
yet, all turn to be weaker n weaker as days passes....

days by days....
praying with a sincere heart.....
yet, things turn another ways round....
i am not sure whether i am live or dead....
i am not sure whether when i can live....
or when will i die physically, spritually , mentally.....

live dead soul.......you are scary n torturing!!!!