The power of LOVE :)

After a superb trip to welly and christchurch, i think God wants me to learn what we called the power of LOVE. It was quite amazing when i realise that the power of LOVE supress ALL. First and the foremost, I had seen through the power of love between couples. A relationship of christians is not just dating, yet it's a courtship which is romance with wisdom controlling it so the romance can soar. In order to truly lay the relationship down at god's feet, both parties had to part with them. From the relationship of my friends, i can see that they are striving their best to make the romance work, not in their way, but in god's way instead. A strong foundation is so important to make the long term works, to not to hurt each other, to sustain the love. It takes so much efforts, commitments, willingnesses, wisdoms and courages of course.

Then, here comes the power of LOVE between friends. During the trip, two of my friends angry with each other for a small matters for almost a day. Yet, forget and forgive is the value which God wants me to learn from this. And of course God wants me to learn how to deal with people who get angry and bitter easily with patience. I did do my very best to become the peacemaker. Although i just done what i should, yet i did learn a lots which is more than i could imagine actually. If i could not bear with it, i might just give both of them a slap within saying anything. Yet, i know i couldn't actually do it as it would only make things worst and it doesn't bring any good anyhow. God's command- love others as much as He loves us. And i believe that we will be loved if we willing to love people with an accepting heart. Have a BIG heart people!!! :)

Well, i'm reading ''boys meet girls'' by Joshua Harris to have a deeper understanding about romance which God wants - courtship. Following by '' I kissed date goodbye'' by Joshua Harris too!! :) Both are good books which helps us to have a deeper understanding about romance. Well, God will provide someone who suits you, who you need, who love you, who care about you, who need you, who is willing to sleep in the same bed with you till you get old, who will take your hand and walk through ALL :)

Sometimes, it can be as simple as just like that!!

This song reminds me of you in the late night. Reminds me that how hard you are learning to sing this song as you like it that much too!!! ''As in i'm in paradise with your presence'' is the meaning of the whole song. Happiness is as simple as just with the presence of your loved one. Sometimes, he/she might not be yours, yet he/she is in your heart. The presence of love deep in the heart. Yet, so hard for me to believe that i will be loved, i will be cherished, i will be adored, So HARD!!! Thus, not to let myself to have the time to think too much, to hope for love, to search its presence, to not to be broken into pieces again, i choose to close my heart for now. Not the time ready to love someone, no right one appear for now, not the correct period to fall for someone, not enough courage to open my heart again. I might admire, yet it's just admire, not love. Anyway, God will provide when the time comes and this is the only thing i believe in love.

I guess i miss you again when there's no one else tricks me as you always do. All alone is a little bit of creepy i reckon. Anyhow, Off to chch and welly from tmrw!!! A big 'YEAH!!!'' for that!!! N thanks dear Lord for being still good to me!! :)

we hwin!!! :)

YES!!! WE WERE THERE :)

They scrumed me :(

ALL BLACKS are doing the HAKA!!! :)

singing national athems!!! nz's nicer!!!

ALL BLACKS'S logo :)) sooo prettyyy!!!

Indeed, it was a really awesome match!!! Last match in Carisbrook stadium, Dunedin!!! But, my first ever!!! It was a really good one as i really cheer till my voice box hurts. The quick waves was fun too!!! It was good that They won by 42-9 to the Wales. It was even better that finally i had an opportunity to shout out all my anxieties and frustrations. Thanks my good friends too!!! :)) You guys are awesome too!!!

what's coming up next?? christchurch & welly!!! woootsss!!! :)))

It is good as God is always good to us.

Sweet things always come after the battle.

Yet, there more to be done, to be pulled through...

n I want to make it all well done with You.

that's weird....i guess i did miss you when i listen to the songs that you like....i miss you!!

need You now....

hooked!!!

it's a quarter after one, i'm a little drunk and i need you now....
it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now...

ohh...physic....i need you to go into my mind now...

Oh Lord, need so much wisdom, so much!!!

arrogance

Hmm...finally, left the last to go, yet it's hard...
Yesterday, the ugly me came out and pissed him off.
Why am i so arrogant??
why am i so capricious,muleheaded??
maybe it's exam fever...
but i still need to control myself,
i still need to behave myself,
i still need to have the patience(which is so hard for me to earn)!!!

The guiltiness overwhelming my head and soul from last night till now,
albeit he is not angry anymore.
Yet, sorry seems to be the hardest to say...indeed, i can't spill it out from my mouth due to my ego and arrogance.
He is someone who is near to perfect,
someone who is more precise than me in doing task,
someone who has the patience which i don't really have,
someone who care and love people via words and actions,
someone who is knowledgable, smart, charming,
someone who you might think he is witty but he's not,
someone who always build me up instead of drag me down,
someone who i love to chat and grumble with and listen to,
someone who love origami, romance movie, love songs & starting to hum chinese songs,
someone who take very good care of his health, even teach me how to eat healthily,
someone who always help me to remember what i forgot most of the time (keys!!!)

Thanks God for showing me such a nice person who is becoming a mentor of me,
God,
change me to a better one,
change me to someone who can be able to do Your great works,
change me to someone who can be able to serve Your people,
change me to someone who a christian girl should be...
change me O Lord....

strong enough to save.....

He is strong enough to save...
strong enough to save you and me....
strong enough to hold us from the chaos...
strong enough to make me to live for Him again....
strong enough to strengthen us from our weaknesses....
strong enough to pull me through all these....

You are strong enough to let me cling on You in the storm...

2 down, 2 to go!!!
Pls remember He is strong enough to save....
hold on girl!!!

knock on the stupid me!!!

This time really sighhhhhh....
cels = knock on the hardhead of stupid me!!!
How?? How?? HOW??
how to be bigger than this??
how can i keep memorising it without forgetting??
dieeeeeeeee......dieeeeeeeee!!!
perhaps, i really not suitable to do science.....
SIGHHHHH......

i really don't how to carry on....
couldn't sleep, couldn't eat,
what goes in, all come out,
the heart, the faith all sink,
no hope, no tomorrow, no future,
oh God, pls help!!!
You said You're here,
but where are You now??

1 down 3 to go....

woohoosss!!!
after a day less than 4 hrs sleep,
hubs was done!!!
i couldn't say that i had aced it well,
yet, i knew that i had done my very best,
all i need to do is just surrender the outcome to God,
no matter how would the result be,
i will accept, coz You are the want who provides,
You are the one who gives and takes away,
You are the one who shapes me to be someone who i should be,
Not in the other way round, it's not about who i want to be,
is all about who You want me to be.....
so either dentistry or pharmacy,
i will give thanks,
coz i am not bornt to be given either both,
coz i am a broken one who is not deserved those,
coz i am just just a simple one, not an extremely smart geek,
not a very hardworking nerd, not as faithful as You to me,
Yet, Your graces and mercies never stop flowing over my life,
Your love never stop falling over me,
Your heartbeat never stop beating for me.

Thanks for the first is done. 3 more to go!!! 3 more girl!!!
after these, there're more to come, bigger one coming, n tougher i suppose...
Yet, i'm looking forward my one week holidays to christchurch and wellington...HAHA!!! :)
AND home has 1 just left for holidays ( mummy kim flies today!!! )
3 more going to leave soon too :(
i guess i will be missing them.....
They're part of my life here....
Without them, i don't think i can go so far.....
so, mummy kim, big mama sally, jiejie ivy, koko wei, uncle steven.....
i love you guys so much....
i know you guys do so :)

Habakkuk 3:19
'' The Sovereign LORD is my strength ; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music. On my stringed instruments. ''

This love is dancing in my heart....

'' stand in the rain,
when everything is crushing down,
dance in the rain,
you wouldn't drown,
as He is dancing with you,
His love is dancing in your heart....''

We're looking on a couple who were dancing salsa yesterday when we were getting too tired to study. The ''salsa'' amazed us. He say how cool it would be if i know how to dance, n I was laughing loudly at him....haha...i couldn't really imagine if he did make it :p Okay, enough of us!!! Exam is 2 days....the overwhelming pressure, the heaps of studies, the 3-5 cups of coffee a day, the goji berries which i am binging on, the ''too comfy'' bed which is so hard for me to get up.....etc, etc...are what happening during this tough period. Yet, He keeps remind me that He is dancing with me in this storm.....

I can hear that He is whispering to me that ''keep on....keeping on my girl!!! shall we keep dancing?? ''

you....

you put stress on me as in you want me get into den so so much....
you flirt with every girls in msn yet you said that i can see...no secret...
you asked me how long i take to let go the past, then you said you might take longer...
you know i dislike capsicum although you like, yet u will never cook it for dinner...
you know i am super duper grumpy when i'm hnugry, yet you always bear with it...
you asked me if i have a bf..will i tell people...i said of course!!! n make it official..
you urge me to go study when i am so tempted on tv dramas or comp games...
you change my perspective on you when you said that you wish to go to poor countries to provide free health services....although you always say that you work for money...
you asked me to stop binging on food when you notice that i'm growing horizontally...
you motivates me to go on and hang on with a cheerful heart....
yet,
i hope you can believe Him,
i hope you can love Him,
i hope you can count on Him,
i hope one day you would tell me,
i like this place,
it brings me peace,
it makes me feel loved,
it let me see hopes,
and He is the one i want to follow,
serve, live and love in my entire life.....

I have a dream....

I have a BIG dream since i'm five.

It probably would not be achieved if i didn't work hard enough.

I wish to become a doctor or dentist,

yet neither for greed nor pride,

I wish to become one just so

i could go to Kenya, Africa,

to treat the youngs and olds from illness,

to provide free health services,

to see them recover from sickness,

to share how great is our Lord,

to lead worship with a just a guitar,

to dance with the children,

to see the olds clapping and cheering for Him,

to bring the love, faith and hope to them,

to let them know we have a LOVING god,

and,

i wish to get married there too, funny huh??

not with the blacks if can,

yet ,

with someone who has the same dream as me,

with someone who leads me to achieve this dream,

with someone who i can make this dream come true together,

with someone who is more passionate and loving,

with someone who has such a BIG heart for people,

with someone who can love my weaknesses instead of my strength,

with someone who loves God more than me...

This is my dream, which it seems so so hard to make it true,

Yet, it's not impossible...

I'm praying and praying about it everyday.....

In Him,

nothing is impossible,

when hope all gone,

when the road is ended,

when impossibilities cover,

He'll amaze me

if i believe.

save the man???

A line caught my interest today after i was watching Dr Phils during lunch....

''Are you trying to save your man or the man who you expect him to be ??''

Good question to think about :)
sometimes, it does confuse us. Are we love the man's heart or we just fall for someone who we need him to help us in everything and just so our lives become easier?? or we love just because he is the ideal one who has fulfilled all the qualities, preferences and conditions?? we love because he is the perfect one??

To me, No!!!
i rather fall for the fat and ugly man with a genuine heart, yet not the good-looking one who act superficially. It's the matters of heart, not how good the one is.

Thus, think about it :) it's good to remind me to look for the heart but not my expectations towards man, so do you. :)

familiar vs unfamiliar.....

There is somewhere so familiar to me, Yet with people who are unfamiliar to me.....
There are faces which is so familiar to me, Yet i don't even know their names....
There are words which is so familiar to me, Yet they always slip away from my mind....
There are you who is so familiar to me, Yet i can't understand your heart...

Sometimes, when you reckon that you're so familiar to the things which you have been with for a very long time, yet, it doesn't really mean that you truly understand them, it doesn't mean you have seen through them, it doesn't mean they have became part of you and your life........They are just something which is just walking pass in your life for a very brief moment, or just somebody who is standing by you for just a little while......They will not be ever yours, they'll gone.......it's just the matter of early or late, still, they'll leave....

So, only only Him, will not go away from your life. Even when the whole world crumble, HE will definitely cover you with ALL He has. ALL!!!