arrogance

Hmm...finally, left the last to go, yet it's hard...
Yesterday, the ugly me came out and pissed him off.
Why am i so arrogant??
why am i so capricious,muleheaded??
maybe it's exam fever...
but i still need to control myself,
i still need to behave myself,
i still need to have the patience(which is so hard for me to earn)!!!

The guiltiness overwhelming my head and soul from last night till now,
albeit he is not angry anymore.
Yet, sorry seems to be the hardest to say...indeed, i can't spill it out from my mouth due to my ego and arrogance.
He is someone who is near to perfect,
someone who is more precise than me in doing task,
someone who has the patience which i don't really have,
someone who care and love people via words and actions,
someone who is knowledgable, smart, charming,
someone who you might think he is witty but he's not,
someone who always build me up instead of drag me down,
someone who i love to chat and grumble with and listen to,
someone who love origami, romance movie, love songs & starting to hum chinese songs,
someone who take very good care of his health, even teach me how to eat healthily,
someone who always help me to remember what i forgot most of the time (keys!!!)

Thanks God for showing me such a nice person who is becoming a mentor of me,
God,
change me to a better one,
change me to someone who can be able to do Your great works,
change me to someone who can be able to serve Your people,
change me to someone who a christian girl should be...
change me O Lord....