familiar vs unfamiliar.....

There is somewhere so familiar to me, Yet with people who are unfamiliar to me.....
There are faces which is so familiar to me, Yet i don't even know their names....
There are words which is so familiar to me, Yet they always slip away from my mind....
There are you who is so familiar to me, Yet i can't understand your heart...

Sometimes, when you reckon that you're so familiar to the things which you have been with for a very long time, yet, it doesn't really mean that you truly understand them, it doesn't mean you have seen through them, it doesn't mean they have became part of you and your life........They are just something which is just walking pass in your life for a very brief moment, or just somebody who is standing by you for just a little while......They will not be ever yours, they'll gone.......it's just the matter of early or late, still, they'll leave....

So, only only Him, will not go away from your life. Even when the whole world crumble, HE will definitely cover you with ALL He has. ALL!!!

Go with your strength, I'll stand by you.....

I was so touched by this video on how strong those AIDS patients live on their lives every single day. Pains appear when they are being injected. Sufferings occur when they are lacking of basic necessities to survive. Sorrows reveal when their loved ones passed away. Really, compares to them, indeed, we have a blissful life which is full of love and blessings. Why we still complaint or demand for more when we have already given more n much more than them???

hmm, this is a small reminder for me myself who always feel doesn't alright in everything, who always grumble for everything, who always appreciate less with what i had and am having, who has lost her faith n hope in achiving GOALS in life n on hypocrisy of peers which i fear of.

Here, i want to apologize to Lord coz i always fall asleep in service. But, today, i do remember a phrase which is delivered by pastor Mike in order for us to accomplish our massive GOALS in life. This phrase entirely hits my heart, stays in my mind, follows me in whatever i do n wherever i go.

'' Go with your strength, He will follow you, His love will sustain you.''

never ever......

yea......i had finished my summary presentation today....such a memorable day!!! 31 August 2009, i cried but no for the '' merdeka '' of Malaysia, but for my ''never ever'' 15 mins long individual presentation in New Zealand!!!

hmmm....i didn't really do well yet at least i did it!!! i was the third one who was choosen by random to present my article. Before that, early in the morning, i rush to school lib to print out my OHT.....grateful i managed to print it out anyway.....haha...then i rushed to due in my english group report b4 9.oo am.....hmmm......hectic eh?? rushing here and there like bee..

awwwwwwwww............presentation got started!!!!! i was so nervous......heart is shivering as much as hands and legs......yet, i have a supportive team who are cheering and praying for me as well....i was amazed by their love and care.....even more amazed by the loved ones.....it's my turn to stand in front of ppl to give a brief speech.....nervous and panicked man!!!!

someone did told me '' do your every best to Him!!! He will be a loyal audience and give you the greatest applause for what you had done!!!''

jane '' wow.........i was amazed and impressed!!!''

someone hugs me after my presentation and pats my head and said '' girl, relax...don't be afraid!!! it's all over!!!''

jane's tears fell.............hugging her so tightly.......the first hug i had in NZ with full of love and comfort.......jane's tiredness, fear and sense of lost all lies on her body for a while to rest....so jane cried as she never ever did that in front of friends here......as jane never ever show her weaknesses and pains......as jane never ever dare to speak out.....

someone knows she is tired......she is fear....she is worried....yet she cling on God so much so much as she needs to...

jane did cling on God.....yet, she didn't take out her heart to fully believe Him....as in reality, She rely on ppl more than God.....She knows she cant......

'' when i burnt the paper which is wriiten my secret sins......i felt relieved.....but burst in tears when i was repending my sins by prayers''

right here waiting for you

moving out made me so tired......
so many things to buy and organize..
i went to the warehouse after school...
to buy some household stuffs....
i bought a rack to hang my clothes and
another small rack to dry my clothes....
n some plates, cups, spoons.knife,forks,bowl, etc.....
i supposed to walk back home from the warehouse.....
but how i couldn't able to carry all the things that i bought??
so helpless....raining at that moment....n i only left 15 bucks in my wallet.....
sigh....i stood outside the warehouse to wait.....
i didn't know what i am waiting for....i need help...
yet nobody came.........felt discouraged....upset....useless...

suddenly, i heard a sound....
''girl, you had enough money to call a taxi....why don't you try??''
when i turned around....i saw there is no one standing near to me...
who was that??? is He God??
i think He is.....i praised....i was grateful...
i was so afraid 15 bucks is not enough...
yet....God showed me that '' girl, it is more than enough!!!''
ok......now....i finally reached home......started arranging my stuff....
i needed to fix the rack i bought....hooooooooo....
how can a girl fix such a big and heavy rack???
i prayed again to God.....
no choice already......still needed to fix it anyway....
when i was fixing it, i felt that God is with me....
He seemed like using his hands to fix it for me....

Thanks God......i was so little.....
i was so tired....i was so hungry as well.....
yet You are always there for me...
i was not waiting for a miracle...
instead i was waiting for You...
You always say.....
'' girl, take a rest and know I am God...I am right here waiting for you to reach out to me...''