onions...

Life like an onion,
when you peel a layer of it,

sometimes you weep...

After weeping,
desperado onion soup,
might be the result...

That's life!!!
we weep,
Then, we stand up,
we fight for it,
victories come as good food...

No, you wouldn't...

Would you??
No, you wouldn't,
you had left silently,
i'm glad that you had left,
so,would you pls leave the core which is still aching as well??
as you would never ever be there....

The Omnipotent God...

Today is gonna to be a pretty brief one.......
I really really truly want to say a Very Big Thank You to Him!!!
I got 5 out 6 for my chem lab test which i thought that it was initially screwed up by me.
I thought i would get even 1 point, not even 1.
But, God gave me a surprise...a chance...an encouragement.
After getting the mark,
He speaks to me,
'' I gave you every single seconds, every minute, every hour, every day, week and months as a chance. A chance to do better for me, a chance to learn to cherish things that i had done and am doing for You, a chance to draw nearer to me, a chance to stand up for me after every falls, a chance to believe me, a chance to say you love me.''

AWWWW.....
YOU----The Omnipotent, ALL Powerful, Incomprehensibly loving God, I Love You!!!

Heaps like mountains....

''Ability may take you to the top, but it takes character to keep you there.'' - John Wooden.

hmm, my low ability in academic really really drag my faith and confidence down.
There are jz so much need to be done everyday,
so much need to be squeezed and stored into brain,
They took away my sleep, my courage....
Yet, it doesn't really give you an assurance that,
''WOW, I did well!!! ''
It doesn't for now...
maybe it didn't really been done well,
maybe i didn't really put enough efforts.
heaps of maybe-s marching in my mind.
heaps of fears covering my whole heart.
It's jz heaps and heaps....
Heaps to be done...be swallowed..
heaps to be sacrificed...be paid off..
Then heaps of good news will come.....

I am loved :)

Before i go off to bed,
i really really want to say,
A Big Thank You to,

My lovely flatties, who are giving me fully supports during exam...

seb, who texted me ''don't stress, God bless!!!'',

Johanna, who kept texting me physic jokes and the one who leads all prayers for us,

Alicia, my super duper lovely lg leader who always pray for me b4 everything is gonna to start and happen,

Carol, who will always flick me a text to add on my strength and Fear NOT!!!

Fiona, who send me a very long and touching text after she read my blog i guess....weehee!!!

Dorothy, who always teach, encourage, and advice me what to do when i'm so confused, helpless, lost and tempted by some other insteads of focusing on studies...

Dennis & Ade, who send texts to me as well, teach me how to deal with my study time and method, and umat stuffs....

Ginny and Ah gong, who are the lovely one, they came to send me medicine when i'm sick and always take good care of me by treating me good food (yumyum)!!!

Joel and Vicky, who sent me a ''de-stress packet'' to reduce my stress level----their homemade lovely and yummy cookies....hehehehe =))

So, in the midst of darkness and loneliness,
i'm not walking all by myself,
i'm not running in the single marathon,
i'm not racing alone,
i'm loved by awesome people,
they are the stars in the only blue sky,
they make my life shines,
they make me different,
they make me loved......

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
I'M BLESSED....
I'M LOVED...
N I LOVE THEM...

It's Your L.O.V.E......

This song sing my heart out...
Today, early in the morning, i have lifegroup bible study,we learn about whole chapter of Ephesian 3, it's really awesome. Because i found out that the whole chapter speaks to me.

I have to admit that I am that kind of shy and discouraged person. It could be said that ''i'm not that friendly and approacable to everyone.''. But, i'm really really trying my very best to say ''hi'' to everybody that i bump to no matter where and who. Yet, i feel that i always do insufficiently...It's jz not enough. And the result of my 'hard-to-approach'' to people, i have less friends...less trusted friends who i can really speak to, who i can pour my heart to, who i can study with and who i can grumble to. So, i'm becoming more quiet now...well,isn't people call maybe you're getting more mature so less in talking but choose to listen more instead?? Hmmm....i don't think so...i jz reckon that i'm not alright...How could a person who likes to talk and share, as time flies, she is becoming more and more introvert and quiet?? Well...i wonder who am i now...hmmm..a very good question to think about...

Well, about love, not about the ''BGR'' one, what i actually mean is about the love for people around me. Hmmm, i seem to be selfish nowadays or i jz don't know how to open my mouth and invite or offer. I used to love people so much. But, now, i found it's so hard for me to open my mouth to offer, like ask people want to taste the food that i order. Hmm...i wonder why...maybe i scare..i fear..that i maybe burst out with something wrong through my mouth. This is what people call lack of confidence and faith?? I suppose....i dislike myself being like this..it's jz something i can't accept and allow myself to have..THE SELFISHNESS!!! =((

I'm someone who is torn but still alive because of His Love.
I'm someone who is so unworthy to receive His Love everyday but He tells me that ''You're worthy, my girl.''.
I'm someone who is not pretty enough but He whispers to me that'' You're beautiful in my eyes''.
I'm someone who is so selfish, someone who don't know how to love, but He says '' You're willing to learn, you have the heart for it, you're not selfish, you're jz don't know where to start to love, jz sometimes find it hard to express your love to others. But, in my eyes, You're lovely.''

Lord, if i ever not know and believe you, i wouldn't have the faith to believe myself. If You not ever love me, i wouldn't grasp how wide, how deep, how immeasurable, how indescridable...How GREAT is Your LOVE!!!

'In Him through faith in him we way approach God with freedom and confidence. I ask you, therefore, not to be discouraged because of my sufferings for you, which are your glory.'' ephesian 3:12-13

It's Your Love...I'm worthy...I'm beautiful...I'm who you specially made...I'm unashamed..

Because of Your Love...I'm trusting...I'm learning...I'm crawling out from my fear...i'm doing my best for You...

In You, i have FAITH.

flatties = family ?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....i'm HAPPY today!!!!
We have a really nice and interesting talk during dinner today :)
Ah Ha?? we're gonna to sing ''Steven is gonna has a GF, Steven is gonna has a GF!!!''
Why we're so excited about it?? because we care!!! we're a big family!!!

Hmm, talk bout love, romance and relationship....
everyone has different opinions and perpectives...
But, everyone care about the how long the relationship is going to sustain??
How well you know about the special girl or guy??
How sure can you promised that you'll be faithful, so does she/he??

Those are the first part of questions everyone's mind pop out.
Then, Kim and Wei (who are those in a relationship) start to teach steven many kinds of methods to ask the girl out...or might jz bring her home and we're all gonna have a glance on her :)) HAHAHAHAHA.....

Why i said that we're like a family, sometimes more that siblings??
coz,
~when some of them wanna to go out for a date, they'll ask opinions from all of us on what kinds n colours of clothes should he/she wear in order to look as perfect as possible. (done by Wei)
~we share the happy or sad things which had happened during the day when dinner.
~we comfort, encourage and support each other during exam and test period.
~we go library to study together and get groceries as well.
~we play boardgames and say jokes together.
~we cook for each other.
~we care for each other in the ways of when we came home, who we're going out with and where and do what...
~we fight with each other sometimes, esp me and wei =)
~we are like a big family!!!

I really can't wait to create more n MORE memories and happy moments with you guys!!!
I am loved by those ppl (kim, sal, ivy, wei and ste).....
coz i'm the youngest!!!

N thank you Thank You n THANK YOU, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!!! =))