The 3 words...

''I LOVE YOU'',

these 3 words can mean a lots to some people,

yet it could jz be joke to some,

still, to me, i'm terrified of it,

terrified of either hearing or saying.

There are couples that commit to saying it to each other every single day, no matter what happens. On contrary, some only say it if they really, really mean it. They take the words very seriously and will refrain from saying them just as a response. There are some extreme ways of dealing with these three powerful words.

To me, i would say that i'm entirely terrified of these 3 words. I'm jz at the somewhere near the end of the extreme and see these words in fear and insecurity. Neither would i throw them around willy-nilly nor spur it out. And, it could be completely deleted or erased from my mind.

I'm jz don't really have the trust and faith in love or romance as promises always fail, expectations never come true, the feelings towards each other say bye, betrayal, unfaithfulness, changes of characteristics and many many reasons. Those pulls me down from believing it, takes away the attractions towards opposite sex, snatches away the feelings of being in loved and kills my heart till only bitterness left. So, for now, i'm not even want to fall in love to somebody and not even want to be loved. And, i don't think i'm really, indeed ready for it.

Thus, single always win, it never lie, never make you falls apart, never make your heart broken and never ever make you bitter!!!

Somehow, my mum told me, bible says '' These people will wait until they're ready to walk down aisle with someone before uttering these three words'' (2John 1:1-13). And, i believe that as much as i agree with this verse. So, wait until you're ready, then say, commit and sustain to suppress all till the very very end. God will definitely smile at you and say ''You guys make it!! well done!!! :) ''

just like them!!!! :)

What if ?? What should??

Well, i had gone through a pretty long day. First Chem Lab was really in a mess, not me but almost 3 quarters of the class. I was being fixed in a place which my lab partner who sit beside me didn't know how to run the whole experiment. So, i need to lead him in order to finish the whole experiment in 3 hours. Leading a boy who doesn't know how to carry out the experiment is not an easy stuff (seriously!!!). I need to explain how the whole experiment run, what's aim of the experiment, how to deal with the calculations , procedures and heaps!!! Duhhh....blabla n bla =((

So yea, after the first chem experiment with a new freshman, i reckon that how great is God in leading everyone of us in the path of life. How can He makes it?? I wonder.....Okay, let's say what if God decided to stop leading us tomorrow because we didn't follow Him today?? What if God didn't walk with us today because we failed to recognize it as His day?? What if God took away the bible tmrw because we would not read it today?? What if God took away His message because we failed to listen today?? What if God didn't send His beloved son to wash away our sin because we didn't believe in Him?? What if God closed the door of the church because we didn't open the door of our hearts?? What if God stop loving and caring us because we stop loving others?? What if God took away His blessing because we didn't bother to say ''thank you'' to Him?? What if God met our needs the way we give Him our lives??

The ''what ifs'' questions are sobering and help me to reflect that i take far too much for granded in the relationship with Him. Isn't i asking too much but returning less?? Stef's word today keeps on flashing through my mind today : it's not too much jz to give God your 4 days out of 365?? Well, it's something i need to think about it before making a right choice....indeed, i want those 4 days are all for Him n jz for Him.

Well, i'm gng to continue my bible reading everyday...in order to finish the new testament....keep it up....one day has 24 hrs.....and it's not too much jz to give your 30 mins for Him n jz for Him!!!