lies

spring lies to ppl that it will be warm and colorful....
ppl lie to ppl that they didn't do wrong but they do...
friends lie to friends that they will help you yet no...
lover lies to lover that how much she/he loves him/her yet failed...
children lie to parents that they don't want to go school as they sick yet they jz lazy....
students lie to tutor that they did finish their job yet they haven't start....
are we all liars???

i lie to myself that i am fine and strong yet i am not...
i lie to myself it will be alright but it is not....
i lie to myself i can finish it strong but my will ask me to stop sometimes.....
i lie to myself that i am not alone as single stays long yet i am alone....
i lie to myself that you can face it yet i make myself drunk to escape...
am i a liar??

how many time we lie to God but we thought we are right??
how often we lie to God that we trust yet we don't??
how many time we lie to God we don't want to blame yet we still??
how always we say we put all our worries and fear into His hands yet we failed??
are we such a big liar?? even to our holy Father??

lies........i am tired of lying....lying to GOD....lying to myself.....lying to ppl......boosting how good i am now...how well is the place i am....how easy life going on and on......how much i had grow??

''God, i wanna to see your face...i wanna you to bring me away to any places....i don't want to face.....i am so tired.....sorry...i lied....lied to ppl around me...lied to myself...even lied to You....sorry God....''

''smiling without any real hapiness in heart.....a fake smile......a faded laughing sound.....a cold heart....a masked poker face.....that's me now!!''