alone.........

eewwwwwwwwwwww.......
i stayed in the lib the whole day......
alone in the lib with lots of ppl i dont know.....
yea......i striving so hard to step into ppl life....and care for them.....
but...nothing in return to me....
who care about me???

yup...
i sick.....terribly sick....
sneeze and sneeze non stopping......
not dare to see doc coz too expensive.....
not dare to take medicine coz it will make me dizzy.....
not dare to sleep well coz will think on how to strive through tomorrow.....
not dare to expect coz it will jz disppointed me....
not dare to go lifegroup coz scare i spread the sickness to ppl......

i had already become so strong....strong till no tears to fall anymore....
but i am tired....tired of the life like this.....tired of lots and lots of pressure....
tired of searching the faith, love and hopes....
tired of hurting myself because of him.....
tired of knocking the door again....as no want reply
tired of being myself.....a little one who needs to stand strong....

when i am so weak.....You are so strong.....
when i am so down....You are the only one who knows....
when i am so tired...You are the one who i want to sing to.....
when i am so lost....You are the one who i seek for....
when i am alone....You are the only one who holds my hand....

i love this song so much ''Glorified''
''Lord , i come into your holy place,
stand in awe on your cleansing grace,
who am i that you will care for me,
i glorified, the one who died for me.
glorified..........glorified.......
let your name be lifted up
and glorified,
let the earth tremble at your name,
let your name be lifted up and glorified,

To your hands i commit my life,
day by day as a living sacrifices,
who am i that you will care for me,
i glorified the one who died for me,
glorified..........glorified.......
let your name be lifted up
and glorified,
let the earth tremble at your name,
let your name be lifted up and glorified.....''

i sing this song everytime i am so depressed and sicked........coz in the midst of suffering, i want to glorify Him though....Once i praise Him.....Once my strenght is renewed......