exercise bonds relationship ;)

This week could be said that quite a productive one.
We girls (lifegroup) went exercise in unipol for twice a week.
From doing cardio till weights,
to make your quadriceps, hamstrings,triceps and biceps muscle firm n strong,
living in such a healthy life huh?? lolsss....

HAHA, i felt that i can be more n more open to my lifegroup girls.
Alicia (the very lady captain),stef,fio,jud n rachel...
well, i love to talk to alicia coz she is amazed me,
esp the maturity that she is having, the experiences, the promises...
i can jz pour out everything to her, can jz be so real in front of her...
can LAUGH OUT LOUD, can be funny, can be serious....lolss...

Tonight, we went for badminton...haha...enjoyable one...
exercise does help in bonding with ppl,
relationship btwn lg girls, btwn couples, btwn friends,
i love to play badminton,
either play seriously or jz for fun...
i love to hit the shuttlecock with all my strength,
jz like i am giving in all i can in living,
giving in all, hit every shuttles it comes to me,
as if conquers all challenges that approaching to me,
well, the feeling jz so so similar....

HAHA...tonight, we had a fun match...
me, caleb, fio n joel laughing all the ways when playing,
but, we did sweat...yet we played in a more relaxing ways...
had been long time for not laughing till stomach pain....
well, i laughed for 2 hrs today... =))

Love exercise, love my lg,
love badminton, love laughing out loud,
love to be myself by not bothering about how ppl look at me,
love doing life together,
love to give in all i can in everything i do,
love to do my best in pursuing dreams,
love God so much so much....

gonna to build a stronger relationship with Him,
easter coming, a break from everything,
the 4 days...
I JUST WANT TO GIVE ALL TO HIM....

''father lord, thank you that you love me so much so much, thank you that you are always by my side, thank you that you are willing to come into my heart n life to understand me, thank you for what you had provided n are providing, thank you for giving a great loving family backhome, thank you for deliver awesome friends in my life,thank you for listening to me,to my grumbles everyday, thank you for everything...i love you lord!!! so much, so much...in jesus name, amen :) ''

海阔天空

到了世界盡頭　開始習慣了風
捧著厚厚的寂寞　平靜向前走　不當做那是折磨
到了世界盡頭　開始學會快樂

＊不同方向的遼闊　是你最後溫柔　一直到現在我才懂
　海闊天空　在我心中　濕透了眼就不再迷惑
　望著你給的黑夜　當淚劃過　才能　對自己寬容
　海闊天空　我頂著風　當霧散開就真的自由
　獨自尋遍這地球　找新的出口　謝謝　你讓我愛過

repeat ＊

就算捨不得　也不能回頭
海闊天空　我頂著風　當霧散開就真的自由
獨自尋遍這地球　找新的出口　謝謝你讓我　愛過

indeed, tiredness conquer me,
every part of myself jz crumble,
the uncertainities, anxieties,fears,
add ons the loady workloads, revisions,
housechores, cooking, daily problems,
jz push me down...so tired....
life without papa n mama...
is so horrible n terrible...
lost house's key, internet banking breakdown,
shop for groceries n daily necessities,
prepare lunches, wash clothes, pay bills....
how much i wish my papa n mama are here..
who will jz do everything for me...
what i need to do is jz study..
no worrries bout how life gonna be tmrw n the days ahead...
well, i wish go back to the old days so badly...
i wish there'll always be someone who share my burdens...
i wish i can always be a child...forever ever...

haha...i know what i think of is jz so impossible to come true...
what to do le??
jz move forward lo...what can you do more missy?? you tell me la!!!
cry?? that's useless!!!
smile?? that's a fake one!!!
worries?? that's a killing factor!!!
fear?? that's a murder weapon!!!

well, believe and trust in Him?? unashamed on where you're standing?? pray??
Yea, these are the ways to motivate me to carry on and on....
it's always a journey...
God never fail you...
He'll never ever gonna to fail you!!! remember pls =))

Unashamed

well, after a tough week, after the first hubs test, after all and all, i finally have time for You, Father Lord. (i know that was wrong as i should have time for Him everyday). SIGH.....I am lost in His track as i kept walking on my own. But, church yesterday was really great and awesome one. After a very tiring week, once again, i put down and surrender all to Him that night. My tears fall as i set free from Him after all and all. That's the tears of happiness and gratefulness.

I am grateful that You are here to walk with me everyday.
I am grateful that You deliver awesome people to speak to me in my life along this journey.
I am grateful that what You give are always more than enough.
I am grateful that You make me different from the past.
I am grateful that You are the only lover of my soul.
I am grateful that You love me so much so badly.

There is a cry in my heart,
There is a thirst for discipline,
There is a hunger for things that are deeper.
There is a yearn for peace and calm to reach its victories.




Unashamed by starfield~~

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

Hmm, this song hits my heart and life.
a song which make me reflects myself...
why should i be ashamed of myself who is being sent here??
why should i be ashamed of God who i believe so much??
why should i be ashamed of the place that He sent me??
why couldn't i be unashamed of where i am standing and how far that i had gone through??
why couldn't i be unashamed of what i am doing and pursuing so badly for??


well, these are the questions in my mind for now.
i know i should be UNASHAMED that i am His lovely daughter =))
easter holidays coming, easter camp coming,
time for refreshing after all n all....
time for me to find back the first love to Him =))

a text prayer :)

WOAH!!!
Alicia sent me a text prayer yesterday night =))
First of my lifetime i never ever receive one,
so She ( my awesome lg leader) is the first!!!

An inordinary text,
a prayer which calms my soul and mind,
a prayer which gives me strength to push through,
a prayer which my tears that full of tiredness and anxieties fall for,
a prayer which i need so much so much....
a prayer which God amazed me by giving me a chance to believe....
a prayer which she fulfilled her promise :)

here is the first text prayer i received :

Father God, thank you that you love us and are our shepherd and our provider,our ever present help in times of need. Thank you for jane. Thank you for the lovely person that she is. Father, u commit her into your hands and pray that you will bless her and be with her. pray that as she prepares for her exams you will continue to guide her, give her a sharp mind, wisdom and understanding that she may study well...and peace of mind and calmness so she will not be anxious or stressed. Pray that she sill cast all her anxieties and burdens on you Lord because You care and she can trust you, knowing that You are in control of every situation. Thank you father God. In Jesus name i pray, Amen =)

Amen :)

The lost key...

well, i am so lost nowadays...
even possibly, jz possibly locked myself out of my room for a whole night!!!
can't even contact the landlord,
can't even break the door,
can't even call the locksmith as it's jz so expensive,
can't even study my hubs for term test this friday,
can't even do anything but jz wait and wait......

hmmm, last week was jz not my week,
heaps of annoying things happened,
was totally being involved in rumours of who prefer who, who likes who....
well, i dislike rumours as in those are jz a death wish...
nothing is true...and sometimes jz possibly destroy a friendship..
all in all, luckily, i'm not that innocent to reckon he might be, jz a little bit fall for me...
well, i am sensible enough to know that he is jz not into me...so yea!!!
Rumours pls pls n pls STOP!!!

hmmm...after a heartbrokening one,
i would never ever expect that there'll be someone who will really fall for me...
n jz put his focus on me...accept the whole me....
mummy said 'be patient, God will give you the one who suits you, coz only Him knows you well enough....don't ever find someone jz to fill up your obssession towards love or the emptiness inside!! '
So, now, i jz not want to involve in any rumours...either it might be true or false.
If ever has someone who falls for me, pls come straight to me and say :)
i prefer someone who is brave enough to confess rather than spreading out rumours which may be fake...

So, i am a very straightforward person. Hates ppl turning here n there then eventually say out the truth. i wonder why i become more n more down to earth...maybe this stressful environment makes me becoming less emotional but rational. n Maybe this is what God wants me to be...a tough, strong, rational, sensible girl =))

about the lost key....i successfully bargain with the locksmith in order to get a reasonable price. Well, a really costly lesson for me!!! ( should have to hit my ass if i do it again!!! ) So, i promise i would never left my keys inside n locked myself outside again....NEVER!!! ( pls learn to remember to take the KEY b4 you left!!!)

我不懂

她，
比我勇敢，
比我开朗，
比我大胆，
比我更在乎，
比我更了解，
比我更适合，
知道你喜欢什么，
讨厌什么，
总是知道你的车有什么，播什么歌，
总是会在乎自己的头发又没有乱，
总是会在乎你的胡须又没有剃好，

你，
对她不一样，
对她特别关心，
有她的地方，你很快乐，
有她在，你总是很开心，
去喜欢她喜欢的一切，
有和她一样喜欢的歌，
总是会看她多两眼，
总是只听她的话，

这就是大家所谓的爱吗？
那么有没有那么一个人会去喜欢我喜欢的一切？
有没有一个人会去认为我的不完美都是完美的？
有没有那么一个人可以让我撒娇，让我了解？
有没有那么一个他可以让我依赖，连我安静时都知道我在想什么？

我想念他，一个不是男朋友的好朋友，一个包容接受我所有一切的那个他。

happiness from small things =D

Ta da!!!
Ta da!!!
i was happy today =D
coz my black pepper chicken turns out so well!!!
everyone gives me compliments..HAHAHA =))
Thumbs up la wei!!!
even me myself can't believe i can cook that well =))

coz everything jz in a mess!!!
can't even have enough strength to chop up chicken with cleaver!!
How can i cook a good n fabulous meals??
well, have to thanks ezra who teaches me a lots of dishes...HAHA!!!
cooking will really make me cry man!!
esp, need to cook for 6 ppl...n do all washings..phew!!!
But, yea!!! i am happy!!! =)))

HAPPY not because got praises from flatties...
But, happy that i can suck it up and push it through instead of break down!!!
N now...gonna to suck up HUBS =(( N push it through as well!!! =))
so JANE GO JANE!!! SMILE =D