The lost key...

well, i am so lost nowadays...
even possibly, jz possibly locked myself out of my room for a whole night!!!
can't even contact the landlord,
can't even break the door,
can't even call the locksmith as it's jz so expensive,
can't even study my hubs for term test this friday,
can't even do anything but jz wait and wait......

hmmm, last week was jz not my week,
heaps of annoying things happened,
was totally being involved in rumours of who prefer who, who likes who....
well, i dislike rumours as in those are jz a death wish...
nothing is true...and sometimes jz possibly destroy a friendship..
all in all, luckily, i'm not that innocent to reckon he might be, jz a little bit fall for me...
well, i am sensible enough to know that he is jz not into me...so yea!!!
Rumours pls pls n pls STOP!!!

hmmm...after a heartbrokening one,
i would never ever expect that there'll be someone who will really fall for me...
n jz put his focus on me...accept the whole me....
mummy said 'be patient, God will give you the one who suits you, coz only Him knows you well enough....don't ever find someone jz to fill up your obssession towards love or the emptiness inside!! '
So, now, i jz not want to involve in any rumours...either it might be true or false.
If ever has someone who falls for me, pls come straight to me and say :)
i prefer someone who is brave enough to confess rather than spreading out rumours which may be fake...

So, i am a very straightforward person. Hates ppl turning here n there then eventually say out the truth. i wonder why i become more n more down to earth...maybe this stressful environment makes me becoming less emotional but rational. n Maybe this is what God wants me to be...a tough, strong, rational, sensible girl =))

about the lost key....i successfully bargain with the locksmith in order to get a reasonable price. Well, a really costly lesson for me!!! ( should have to hit my ass if i do it again!!! ) So, i promise i would never left my keys inside n locked myself outside again....NEVER!!! ( pls learn to remember to take the KEY b4 you left!!!)

Ideal future spouse?? urmm??

Haha...we had grls night 2 days ago, and i am the youngest one among them (something for me to happy for =D ). As most of us are single, so we all decided to talk about what criterias, preferences, and qualities we wish our future spouses to have. Nah, to me, i didn't really think about it before as maybe either i am not mature enough or i don't really have hope to a relationship or romance. Simple saying might be i jz lose expectation, hope n faith in love after a heartbroken one.

When reached my turn to share about ''qualities n criterias of my ideal future spouse'' , i really really don't know how to start with...i jz speechless at that moment....hehe..Then, stella gave me guide to lead me in sharing. She asked me to share from 3 different aspects (physically, spiritually and emotionally) which i wish my ideal spouse has. I was like ''Huh, do i need to say it in details?? '' Without a second, all jiejie stared at me with big eyes and replied ''Yes, of course my lil grl!!!'' HMM...i was shivering man...but still i share =))

Physically,
i didn't really ask for more aye,
~ jz need to be neat!!!
~Pls deal yourself with your dressings,
so i don't need to worry for him. ( That'll be pretty nice =)
~ i prefer small eyes one =))
~ n have a great smile =))
~ somebody i can kiss then better lah!!

Spiritually,
~he must be stronger than me (inside)
~he must lead me in my growth
~he must love God more than me (for sure!!! )
~he must have strong relationship with God
~if can, i prefer he do ministry..no matter what ministry =))
~he must be someone i admire n can respect,
so i can follow him securely.

Emotionally,
~he have to be stable in his emotions
~i prefer someone who is not so emo
~prefer someone who is more sensible and thoughtful
~prefer someone who is not sensitive and have a Big-hearted

Others,
i prefer...
~adventurous than romantic type
~not too introvert n strong inside
~handy person
( know how to do something i don't really good at -cooking =))
~family-orientated person (loves kids)
~Big-Hearted, generous, not too serious
~somebody who is willing to tell me his lil lil stories
~n a good listener n advisor or reminder
~someone can inspired n impressed me...so i can follow..
~has sense of direction in his future =)))
~n someone who know how to play ACOUSTIC GUITAR n teach me how to play =))
coz i love it so much so much!!!

That's all, most importantly (which is a MUST), He is a christian man who loves God n family n can lead me in my growth or make me grow n not stay in stagnant. I don't want somebody who please me but point out my mistake to make me improve n grow in meanwhile. If there is one like i said, i reckon that he is beautiful n so beautiful in whatever he does or is doing...i will be impressed n inspired =))) REALLY!!!! i can actually for go the physical part but spiritual n emotional do take a significant role.....

After the sharings, what i learnt is to set an ideal spouse who i can give my heart to. It's because everyone's heart is fragile, once it's broken, it need so much time to be mended. n Hope towards love have to be roused again. He might not fulfill all preferences i desire, yet, at least he has to be close to them. Jiejiesss said '' so u won't easily fall for friends around you!!! keep n guide ur heart carefully...u still young =))) n if u meet someone who is willing to let u step into his life or vice versa n can make u grow spiritually n emotionally, he might be the one as he closes to what u want but the attraction is vital as well...then try to work it out =)) If no attraction but fulfill all ur desire....that's still no point...But, afterall, God will prepare the BEST ONE for u coz He knows you the best!!! ''

A good sharing n lesson =)) i love you all =)) Thank you!!!