past tense?? past perfect tense??

Today, me and jensen sit at astaka and had a good chat. I pour out something in my heart which i had bear for days to him. I don't know who to talk to or who are willing to listen to me or jz give me a hug n let me cry on his/her shoudler. After pouring out all, Jensen said ''It has already became past tense...no!! It was past perfect tense!!!'' He told me '' i know...i know how you feel, i know and see everything actually. I know they are good, sit together in tuition, meet each other for lunch n break and lots...i know but i don't want to tell you...coz i know you will cry...your tears will fall...i know how weak actually you are!!! Girl, it has already became past tense..no!!! It was past perfect tense!!! Go n pursue your dream!!! Keep your lies if you think you both will be better!!! Be arrogance as me!!! no need to smile to everyone if you don't feel like!!! That'll be tiring Girl!!! Keep your smile to ppl that will treasure n cherish!! You are beautiful Girl, someone i trust n trust me, someone who are kind enough yet fragile, someone who always persist to finish all, someone who is strong inside out but needs support . Be good to yourself girl pls as you deserve more!!!''

After hearing all this, my mind keep on flashing out ''he n she is good!!is good!! what should i do??'' So, tears fall as usual. Daddy comes to me, hand in me a book which is named ''BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!!!'' Daddy didn't ask more. He jz hug me n said '' if it's painful enough, shout it out. If it's sad enough, cry it out. If it's a past, let it out. '' I jz cried like a baby..non-stop!!! My face was so painful everytime i smile or talk. It had been so hard for me to take bath with face like that. I had lost my appetite for days..not consume any food but jz drink. It had been felt so uncertain to my result, visa, course approval stuffs, first aid course, eng diagnostic test and the journey i am going to walk on. I had been so reckless n broken when i told him that there got guys treat me good as it is jz a lie. I didn't really open up to ppl, didn't really put trust on ppl or didn't really have the hope in ppl. Coz i fear!! fear about the ignorance....fear bout the lost.....jz so fear!!! But, who knows as i never said....never ever complain....never ever tell ppl bout how i feel...never ever cry in front of ppl...never ever. I jz remain silence...silence all the times...

Then, here comes God when i open my devotional book ''word for today''. Title today is '' The battle is over!!'' The verse is ''....tell...[your children]....the mighty things i have done...'' Exodus (10:2). It's not enough to escape your past. Rather, its power over you must be broken, otherwise it'll chase you the rest of your life. When you break away from something that keeps trying to recapture you, it's crucial to get victory over it--otherwise you can't move forward and enjoy the blessing God has in mind for you. It's jarring to think something's over only to find it isn't. But remember, God wants you to see that when you put trust in Him, obstacles and opposition mean nothing. He wants this experience to be a ''landmark memory'' you draw faith from when you face your next problem. It may have been the story of your past, but it'd no longer the truth about your future.

Lastly, God can solve your problems in different ways, but sometimes He takes you through the Red Sea so that when you get to the other side you can look back n see Pharaoh and his armies ''dead on the seashore'' (exodus 14:30) AND KNOW THE BATTLE IS OVER!!! IT'S ALL OVER!!