Mum said...

I had spent a whole day with family today, esp mum =))
Had a great talk to her today...
She asked me '' are you afraid to go back to nz this time??''
I said '' Why i need to be afraid?? what can i do if i really afraid??''

She said '' I am worried about you, you don't even know how to take care of yourself. How can you survive for another 10 more months?? and one of your cousin is not going back anymore...Do you keen to stay back??''
I said '' If there is a road for me to stay back...i might..But, it seems no road for me to turn back..but the only way is to walk forward....''

She said '' i don't know whether it's right or wrong to send you thousands miles away to take such a big risk all by yourself....it's really confused me sometimes...Do you miss us sometimes??''
I said (with tears in eyes) '' right or not is not significant anymore...although it's wrong, but what can i do now but jz walk on in this journey?? n maybe it's a right choice...jz walk on because God is there to hold me everytime i fall and rejoice with me in happy times. I miss you all when i am alone, when i am doing all the chores and stuffs all by myself, eating meals by myself...and heaps.''

HMM...nothing much i can do now as there is no turning back but jz strive hard in everything n give in the best i can to glorify His name. Me, jz a little one...but never ever give up =)) Coz i am JANE!!! 你会在未来看到我的疯狂因为我给未来的自己希望！！！