Sigh....
finally, i found some time for myself to talk to my blog....cant able to sleep actually....
my ''pretending'' acts and skills are becoming more and more professional la!!!
not happy but have to act like i am very very happy and cheerful...
hmmm....that's not me okay???
So many ppl to meet....so many things to do....so many advices and nags from ppl....
me is really tired to hear those things.....but still have to smile and listen, smile to face ppl, smile to say '' I am so good!!!'' and smile to give responses when ppl asked!!!
well, i want to have some time to take a deep and long breath.....i want to have some fun with somethings that will excite me...i want to play CANDLES as you all did as i always see hopes with lots candles lit with small beams of lights which are so beautiful so nice....but, i didn't have the chance though....
well, need to act like a mature person, talk in mature ways, explains in mature thoughts, smile in mature styles and even laugh in mature patterns.....me is tired to do this!!!!
don't you ever know i want to find back the childhood life??? play candles with friends....eat mooncakes....talk ghost stories.....have a lovely walk in the middle of night with small beam of lights and sing together too!!!! kays....i know....i imagine too much...there is too much.....
However, i still give thanks to what i have....what i had learnt and gained....HAHAHA.....still wish to laugh out loud though...wish to hug someone to cry though....wish to take away the masked face though....wish to shoo away the fake happiness though.....if can, give me jz ONE day to do what i really wish to....for myself to really experience the ''childhood'' life.....it may be childish but at least i am happy right??? HAHAHA ( p/s stop imagine!!!)
hmmm.....i listened to the song ''healer'' by hillsongs for almost 30 times.....
i cried to myself and surrender to You as
''You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease''
so i trust in You....
whether how bad the condition might be......how tough the life is.....how unhappy i am.....how lonely i will be....how fear filled my heart without peace and calm....
i still trust in You for the rest of my life......as You loves me and there is LOVE!!!
finally, i found some time for myself to talk to my blog....cant able to sleep actually....
my ''pretending'' acts and skills are becoming more and more professional la!!!
not happy but have to act like i am very very happy and cheerful...
hmmm....that's not me okay???
So many ppl to meet....so many things to do....so many advices and nags from ppl....
me is really tired to hear those things.....but still have to smile and listen, smile to face ppl, smile to say '' I am so good!!!'' and smile to give responses when ppl asked!!!
well, i want to have some time to take a deep and long breath.....i want to have some fun with somethings that will excite me...i want to play CANDLES as you all did as i always see hopes with lots candles lit with small beams of lights which are so beautiful so nice....but, i didn't have the chance though....
well, need to act like a mature person, talk in mature ways, explains in mature thoughts, smile in mature styles and even laugh in mature patterns.....me is tired to do this!!!!
don't you ever know i want to find back the childhood life??? play candles with friends....eat mooncakes....talk ghost stories.....have a lovely walk in the middle of night with small beam of lights and sing together too!!!! kays....i know....i imagine too much...there is too much.....
However, i still give thanks to what i have....what i had learnt and gained....HAHAHA.....still wish to laugh out loud though...wish to hug someone to cry though....wish to take away the masked face though....wish to shoo away the fake happiness though.....if can, give me jz ONE day to do what i really wish to....for myself to really experience the ''childhood'' life.....it may be childish but at least i am happy right??? HAHAHA ( p/s stop imagine!!!)
hmmm.....i listened to the song ''healer'' by hillsongs for almost 30 times.....
i cried to myself and surrender to You as
''You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease''
so i trust in You....
whether how bad the condition might be......how tough the life is.....how unhappy i am.....how lonely i will be....how fear filled my heart without peace and calm....
i still trust in You for the rest of my life......as You loves me and there is LOVE!!!
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