Magnificent...

Well, easter camp had over...yet, the strong spirit of love n passion towards God is still so strong within my heart. ''Draw near, Hold fast & Go forward'' is the theme of the camp,10. Hmm, in spiritually, i had grown more n more. Drawing nearer to Him....pour out myself from inside out to Him this time....esp on saturday night. On that night, when pastor Then was holding the prayer sessions halfway in worshipping, i walked out from the crowd with one of my friend, dorothy, we kneeled down n leader approached to pray for us. We cried out our soul, our struggles, our pains to Him. For me, i always smile in front of ppl...seldom show my sadness or disappointments to ppl..seldom pour out myself to ppl...always n always pretending. However, on that night, i jz don't care how ppl look at me...i jz want Him...jz want Him comes into my life once again. The part which touches me so much is when all of the hsfy-ers hugged together n pray. We prayed for each other. We cried out our fear n pain in front of each other. We united in christ. How amazing is it?? jz pray n pray for hours....pray for each other's worries, pains, fears, problems and weaknesses......after tears dropping n praying, i felt so relieved...i felt there is peace....i felt God is always with me....walk with me =)

Then, the 2nd thing which amazed me tremendously is when all the leaders helped us to wash our feet. At first, i wonder why they want to help us to wash our feet. Then, melia told me it's because Jesus humbled himself to help his apostles to wash their feet, so do we leaders. We need to humble ourselves to serve Him n His people. Humilation and willingness with sincerity are necessities when serving. She told me that one day i will be washing ppl who i am serving too. I was like ''WOW!!!'' when serving, we need to be humble n sincere.

eugene was washing cyrus's feet.....

Lastly, dawn worship was really really impressive, which amazed me a lots. Although i did complaint that wake up by 6 am was honestly too early after a long day, but somehow it's worthy. As all of us made an effort to wake up early to worship together while waiting for the sunrise...to see the wonders of God's creations. It was really nice when all of us came together to worship Lord with our voices as there was only guitar accompaniments...so our voices outweighed the guitar's...so yea...it's pretty cool n awesome.

we started to worship from the dark......

Then, slowly, there is small dim of light.......

gradually, stronger beams of light was being painted on the sky....nice right??

beams of light getting brighter n brighter....how's amazing huh??

Tada!!! daylight break through......i love it!!! how beautiful....woooottttsss!!!

So, Good morning ppl...it's a brand new day....a brand new life of all creatures...so do me =))

Mum said...

I had spent a whole day with family today, esp mum =))
Had a great talk to her today...
She asked me '' are you afraid to go back to nz this time??''
I said '' Why i need to be afraid?? what can i do if i really afraid??''

She said '' I am worried about you, you don't even know how to take care of yourself. How can you survive for another 10 more months?? and one of your cousin is not going back anymore...Do you keen to stay back??''
I said '' If there is a road for me to stay back...i might..But, it seems no road for me to turn back..but the only way is to walk forward....''

She said '' i don't know whether it's right or wrong to send you thousands miles away to take such a big risk all by yourself....it's really confused me sometimes...Do you miss us sometimes??''
I said (with tears in eyes) '' right or not is not significant anymore...although it's wrong, but what can i do now but jz walk on in this journey?? n maybe it's a right choice...jz walk on because God is there to hold me everytime i fall and rejoice with me in happy times. I miss you all when i am alone, when i am doing all the chores and stuffs all by myself, eating meals by myself...and heaps.''

HMM...nothing much i can do now as there is no turning back but jz strive hard in everything n give in the best i can to glorify His name. Me, jz a little one...but never ever give up =)) Coz i am JANE!!! 你会在未来看到我的疯狂因为我给未来的自己希望！！！

shepherd love as lullaby...

Want to have a good, long, sweet sleep tonight...So, this will be a very short entry =))
YEA!! i am listening to ''Shepherd love'' by Keith Routledge in his album ''Everyday With Jesus''..
It is jz a nice song which is entirely played by piano and some instruments (flute n violin maybe).
It is jz a song as lullaby to lull me to sleep sweetly like a baby without worries and stresses or haven't open his eyes to see how the world look like =)

它是一首没有曲的歌，
只有简单却优美的旋律，
但每一个旋律却打动我的心，
仿佛在叫我要快乐，要幸福，

你心里是否一直住着一个人？
他似乎已经深深地刻在你的心，
不管你假装忘了，假装漠不关心，
心里的某个角落都会想知道他好吗，
看到他很好，自己也会多笑一点，
你心里的某个角落是否一直住着这样的他？？

我学会了如何把心里的那个他埋藏起来，再也不去碰，再也不多想，就这样，我们都笑了。。。