nearer, fear clearer....

I am so emo nowadays....i wonder why....ahem??
There is no peace in my heart ( like wave, up n down)
yea, i felt guilty and dissappointed with myself...
I am simply jz a rotten apple....
why?? why nigel, you still work so hard to teach us...
even your last lec in 2009...you never ever give up...
never ever give up on me....
yet, i kinda give up myself...i am lacking of faith n hopes....
U jz did so many things to make us to gear up...
from the normal lec notes to the supersize organic chem notes,
everyday u remind, test and encourage us...
to memorize, to learn those complicated names...
However, we all make u down everyday...such a disappoinment...
Thanks for every effort u give...

i was so touched today,
by my chem tutor, nigel,
he did so much for us....
yet, we never ever appreciate...
i am jz a rotten apple yet u never give up....
why i still can't stand up?? WHY??

L said ''don't ever look down urself!!!''
jz a experience...learnt it as a lesson..
flunked in papers is nothing to ashamed of...
grl, don't over protect urself n make urself bitter...
never ever tasted sweet albeit ur smile does..
believe ppl who care u although u had being dropped several times,
Stand up n continue the race!!!
Sometimes it bring pains, worries, hardships,disappointments,
Yet, you are growing owing to those.....
you are becoming a godly grl with strong faith...
leave all the burdens n worries to Him...
You know His promise never fails..

Yea, jz bear with me,
i am kinda emo nowadays,
2009 is gonna end n..
2010 is coming so soon...
grl, u gonna stand up, don't lose FAITH!!!
STAY STRONG FOR THE YEAR UPON US...
U HAVE TO BE STRONG TO FINISH IT!!!
I'll be there for you....Don't worry!!! =))

p/s CHEER UP!!! HANG ON!! U will be alright okay =))))