An indefinite one!!!

Christmas past....a new year coming....
what i do in this Christmas??
I didn't do any ministry to serve God this year...
I didn't share the gospel of The Greatest One had bornt on this very special day...
I didn't do much praying for ppl....
yea...i really didn't do that much as previous year during christmas...

This year...2009
is a year which twisted 360 degree of my life....
i left home to nz to continue my tertiary studies...hmm...
it had been so tough for me to left home, esp an dependent grl like me....
But, yea...i managed to go that far...n yea...so far now =))
It's already more than half a year....
but btwn this period, God changed me lots...
from heartbroken relationship, daddy's ill, reality vs friends,
till how God love me by placing different ppl in my life...
from a girl who jz love to pretend, to be hypocrite...
till someone who only laugh n smile for everything happens in her life...
from demanding, sensitive, pessimistic characteristics...
till someone who appreciate n cherish everything with smile....
This is how much i had changed till now...

So, this year christmas to me is simple but lovely...
simple in the way we celebrated it....
lovely becoz christmas is all about LOVE to me....
i never ever sang a christmas carol till my tears fall...
i never ever surrender to God in every christmas....
Yet, i cried this year...in church...
when i was singing '' o holy night''...
i cried...i shouted out to God from the deepest core of my heart...
''I love you God...i don't know how wonderful it will be...but i thank you for the day You gave....i thank you for the love You gave....i thank you for the greatest gift You gave...nothing is more significant than that...nothing...''

hmm..really...
i had a very simple christmas this year..
no carolling, no santa claus, no clown, no grand celebration, no countdown...
but It's jz all about Love....
boost the Love n Unity of a family in christ....
Thank you for the day....
the great dinner i never ever had....
the great time You let the left dunn-ites to build up a relationship for YOU...
the great moment You let me found out my truth self....
the great period You let me to be refreshed n repented for what i had done in my own ways but not Yours...

I really don't know what a journey will it be the year upon...
uncertainity of future pretty much like an endless nightmare....
But, i believe You will lead my way...to the path that suit me..n u WANT me...
Thanks for hold me tight in this twisted year....
Thanks for never ever failed Love You gave..
Thanks for coming into my life....

next year journey, my future, n everything i surrender n commit to You...
Christmas....is not about how Great the celebration is...is all about How great the Love The Above One gave...

Christmas is jz all about You!!!