only wish....

i dislike this day...

i was all alone today...stayed in foundation computer room till there is nobody as everyone has left..only me in such a big room n big building...Do you ever know how is feel??? Do you ever know how much there is someone else come in although i don't know who is he/she??? Do you ever know i only wish there is someone else accompany me?? Do you?? i am not emo-ing...jz feel lonely...n is too lonely...



Then, while i was walking to library to find ginny jie, wind is too strong...my body was shivering. Out of the sudden, i thought of daddy. No one else will love me more than Him except God. Daddy will always protect me like his only princess. What i asked for always will turn to true...it was jz like a dream, all will jz come true. Thinking back......



~Whenever i asked him to fetch me to anywhere, he will definitely reach home in 5 mins to fetch me go any place i want to..will never ever be late.

~Whenever i asked him to buy me food that i wish so much to eat, he will definitely buy it either on that time or the next day.

~Whenever i fall down, he will definitely carry me and bring me to the doctors.

~Whenever the rains come, he will definitely give me the only umbrella as shade n he got nothing to cover himself.

~Whenever the whether was too cold when we are travelling, he will definitely give me his jacket and told me that ''i am not cold at all''.

~Whenever i cried, he will definitely give me his great support n encouragement.

~Whenever i was fighting with my sis, he will definitely scold my sis but not me as he knows i am always the weak one.

~Whenever i was sleeping, he will definitely come over to my room to lower the air con temperature.

~Before i fall asleep, he will definitely come to my room to put the mosqitoes coil.

~Whenever i sick, he will definitely be the most worrying one.

~Whenever i have exam, he will definitely buy all those herbal which can help me to be more focus and increase my memory box....

~Whenever i dislike something, he will definitely take it away from my sight.

~Whenever what happened one day, he will still definitely by my side n be my support for me to continue to survive everyday.



See......how great is the love daddy is giving to me.....someone who will protect n adore me no matter what happened.....he will never ever walk away from me....will never ever say '' u emo yourself la!!! it is what u choose to be!!!''......will love me more than himself....will put me before himself....will wish me have a happy life....will pray for me every single moment.....will hope someone who can love me more than him to take care of me for the rest of my life....this is what daddy hope to see.....This is his only wish for his little princess who always fall down yet he knows that his princess will climb up after every fall...will be stronger n stronger each day...n this is his only wish!!!!



i only wish there is someone who really care, adore, support and protect me no matter what is happening. However, i really learn a very good lesson today till i almost lost someone who cares me a lots.....n make a lots of troubles to ppl....disappointed ppl somehow.....perhaps i should not ask for more or expecting too high.....hmmm......BE STRONG?? isn't really easy?? say it hundreds or thousands times then can i turn to be a STRONG girl?? or STRONG is only a word??? but is so much more difficult as if in actions??



well, i realized that i am so weak when the wind was attacking me everytime i walk. I am not that strong to face everything....i claimed that i am not emo-ing.....

even a strong tree which has live for almost 100 years will also afraid of the attacking of the strong and chilly wind...don't you think that a girl with weak body will not be afraid of it??
even the strong tree will feel the pain when the wind is attacking its body....don't you think that a girl with weak body n soul will not feel the pain ?? or else isn't she has to smile every moment to mask her depressed face??? isn't that she cannot be her real self?? isn't that when u r real ppl will draw u further away?? i can't understand!!

So, i only wish to find back how passionate that the real jane can be able to live honestly and happily with a genuine smile!!!