heart....

my second attempt of bio experiment is the dissection of sheep's heart and lungs.....God is really God....what a sudden injuries and hurts i had experienced was exposed when i was walking into the zoology building....i supposed to be excited....don't you think so?? yet, i was not...sigh....don't think too much ok??

next, stewart demostrated the steps of dissecting its lungs and heart.....a big plate of heart and lungs made me confused.....yet i didn't feel disgusting or sickening.....so just do it!!!! Now my turn to dissect after a brief demo....i was murmuring to myself: where was your excitement of disssecting??? where was your satisfaction of being so brave again??? i lose those....neither excitement nor satisfaction.at that moment, what i felt is just only pain.....each cut i did, each touching and squeezing i did and each steps i took made my heart bleeding as well....it uttered anguished cries....so do mine....i felt so sorry for it....coz being cut and stabbed by a knife or even small scissor is a suffering and a unbearably painful one....heartache....

Once again.....my little soul was being hurt deeply.....calm down...calm down.....i am trying hard to accustom to ignorance.....yet ignorance seems like a curse of human race....asscociate with apathy and selfishness....'' refugees in antearoa New Zealand'' is the topic of my next english essay test.....once again, God is really God....i really want to be a refugees who can run away from everything....especially being driven out from pessimism and sentimental pains.....