be reminded again :)

You want me to walk through the fire. But, You never want me to walk through this all by myself. You never want me to get burnt while i'm walking through the flame. Simply because You still want me to stay strong and pretty for You. And again, You tell me that i will never ever walk alone......never!!!

Thanks for reminding me that You're walking me through the fire......

没有那么容易。not that easy.....

人家常说相爱没有那么容易，
幸福没有那么容易，
爱情没有那么容易，
相信没有那么容易。

现在的我，
对我来说，
生活没有那么容易，
考试没有那么容易，
回家没有那么容易，
一个人没有那么容易，
让我对爱有希望没有那么容易，
全部的全部都没有那么容易。。。

not that easy...
to go home is not that easy...
mum told me bout visa problem yesterday...
need to renew it b4 i go home..
but result slip will come out on the 17th of Feb..
my flight back to nz is on 21st if Feb...
4 days to settle the visa stuffs..only 4DAYS!!!
How could it be possible to make it done???
no visa...i can't go back to nz..
i took almost 2 weeks to apply the previous one..
now only 4 days!!!

next, all bills start coming...
phone, rental, power, internet...
jz like heaps of money i am loaning..
run out of money..
waiting for my bond to be returned back..
n the overpaid rentals for last year..
when the money will be backed??

Then, flatties coming back soon..
i did vacuum this whole morning..
wipe n clean the kitchen n floor...
wash all dishes but i broke a bowl...
and cut my leg...how careless am i...
sighhh...so alone is not that easy..
how much i miss my family..
how much i miss the food they cook for me...

and, ppl asking help from me...
post lots n lots of stdylink mails..
okay..i am willing to do that of course..
but give me some time pls..
thank you =))

lastly, the most significant one..EXAM!!!
It's jz striking me all times..
i can't really concentrate as there are too much
too much stuffs need to be done...
too much worries need to be solved..
i really really gonna to crumble...

so...all n all are not that easy!!!
我不知道我可以不可以做到，但我会尽我的全部力气去完成，也许不会是最好的，但至少我会把它们都做完！！！
I don't know whether i can or not, but i will use all i have n all my strength to accomplish all, perhaps, the results of all may not be the best, but at least i will complete all, i promise!!!
Pray for me ppl....thankies....

Stick it pls!!!

hmm.....i am practicising to put in my contacts everyday. Yet, i did fail it all the times. It never ever goes into my eye once....not even once!!! My sis told me to stop blinking when u want to insert me my contacts. yes, i did stop blink my eyes!!! But, the results never turn out the way i desire for=((( i really have no idea what's wrong with my eyes. I really wish to try for it once. wanna to feel how contacts make me feel refreshed. wanna to take off my specs which i had worn for almost 10 years. sighhhhhhh.....failed!!!

Yet, i am not going to give up anyway. i will still try on. To be honest, contacts really cast out my fear n timidity. Although it's jz something which is transparent n soft n small , yet it's like something which build up my courage to do something i don't dare to try out. so yea!!! i need the COURAGE!!! The BIG COURAGE to face every single hardship which will be coming pretty soon!!! =)))

Oh...my contacts, i will never give up on you!!!
Oh...my promising 2010, i will make you eventful and fruitful!!!
Oh...my Above Papa, i will do my very best to make You proud of me n Glorify Your Name!!!! =))))

p/s : any suggestions on how to wear contacts easily???? i wanna know!!!