You're my everything.

'' Righteousness will be His belt, and faithfulness the sash around His waist.'' (Isaiah 11:5)

He is so faithful,
faithful in every single little things,
faithful in His unfailing promises,
faithful in the ways He works.

However,
I am not,
not faithful at all,
i doubt His love,
i reckon that He's not with me,
i blamed and grumbled at Him,

if you ask me ''isn't He is your everything??'',
i might not know how to answer,
i might not say Yes,
i might hesistate before i can actually answer,

Why?? why i lose FAITH in Him??
why the track that i walk with Him becoming so tough??
why i am so doubtful of His Great Love??

I can't really feel that He is my everything,
could be said that i found it so hard for me to claim that He is actually my everything, it's just so hard for me to proclaim it.So hard!!! I could say that He is my King, my saviour, my Prince of peace, but is just so hard for me to say that He is my EVERYTHING, the everything of me and in me!!!

I know i should not doubt,
should not suspect,
should not ask why,
SHOULD NOT!!!

I really really want to be faithful to You as much as how much You're faithful to me, even though i doubt, i suspect, i fear, i insecure with Your love. I'm trying my very best, the very best to come back to the path which i used to walked with You, the very best to relook how You're working in my life with Your Great Love and the very best to sustain my Faith in You.

You're my everything,
the word 'everything' is too strong....
till hard to say yes....