form 6 stk......my previous school...seems like a stranger to me....not familiar anymore....
i really don't know why it become so unfamiliar to me...friends who i have been studied with them for 5 years also seems like strangers to me...no more happiness...no more excitement...yet what i can feel is loneliness....students from other schools are walking, chatting, eating, playing and sitting according with their own 'school' group....except me.....so sad and down...a girl who i don't recognize is sitted on my left side while one of my primary classmate is sitted on my right side....both sides are chatting happily with their friends...i keep silence during the whole programme...i m thinking 'why i am so lonely?' , 'don't they know i m still there?' or ' am i transparent?'...i hate the feeling...i hate it....
then, i start to imagine all kinds of scene that may be happened in nz...i m asking myself ' if the same situation which is happening here is repeated in nz...sure i will be dead!!' Haiz....''adapt, accept, try, cheer up, u can do it, be the best....etc'' those words i have heard again and again from everyone...but 'am i really that strong to face it?'...i am so confused and afraid.....a person has told me 'someone who loves to cry doesn't mean that she/he is not strong or brave..maybe she just doesn't know how to express and share her current feelings, moods and status with words....and that is you!!!'
Dear cry baby,
ReplyDeleteCrying is not a symbol of weakness.
anyway you smile a lot too la, not only crying all the time
haha...i usually will not cry in front of ppl lo...although i am not happy, i will still smile...so, first day of f6, i m not happy lo!!!jz pretend to be happy...haiz...coz my friends seems like stranger to me...make me sit alone...bt many people thinks that a person who loves to cry is weak n useless...my mum also said that....haiz
ReplyDeletewell, you look great when you're smiling.
ReplyDeleteso smile more girl!