Here in Your presence....

'' Here in Your presence we are undone,
Here in Your presence heaven and earth become one,
Here in Your presence all things are new,
Here in Your presence everything bow before You.''

hmm....this song strikes my heart strongly today during worship, esp the first and the last phrase. In His presence, we are undone. We are jz someone who is being bornt newly. In front of Him, i felt so broken....jz someone who is so incomplete in all ways. Sometimes, i wonder why He still love me as i am so terrible and useless?? Coz His love is divine...is unconditionally..is so wide..is forever ever...is irreplaceable =))

Yea....in His presence everything bow before Him. I was so didn't feel like going to church today. My worries, anxieties and fear over the coming tests outweigh everything in my life, even Him. I felt so guilty as i had a really bad thought to skip church today as i knew i can't steal God's time to do things of my own. I felt so wrong when i was singing this phrase....everything has to bow before Him, nothing can outweigh Him.....jz NOTHING is more significant than Him....

I heard a voice speaking to me during the worship moment, He said ''Jane, don't you ever know everything has to bow before me?? EVERYTHING.....do your best....leave the rest to me....n bow before me!!!'' In that moment, i knew God's heart had been broken by me, He is crying as His daughter never put Him in the very first place and put trust in Him. I felt so bad...so guilty...so so condemned...

I am learning..
learning to put trust in Him..
learning to do my best n leave the rest for Him..
learning to live everyday with His presence....
learning to survive with His divine love.....