fading.....

失去了以前支撑自己的力量，

以前所谓的难兄难弟，

现在全部都消失了，

找不到可以让我放声大哭的肩膀，

听不到以前那么美的鼓励和安慰，

我过得好像机器人一样，

赶着上课，写报告，考试，煮饭，整理家的大大小小，

我很累了，跟本就没办法好好吃和睡，

做在电脑前面，眼泪就会掉不停，

走在人多的路上, 寂寞却在我身边环绕，

开始害怕人群，开始讨厌热闹，

开始学会一个人傻笑，开始习惯一个人哭泣，

长大了吗？放下了吗？原谅了吗？接受了吗？

我只知道我累了，害怕了，担心了，

if can, pls don't ask me '' How are you??''.....If can, pls walk as far as you can from me......If can, pls don't show me you care.....If can, stop giving me any expectations or hopes......i learning to forgive and forget....letting go is not that easy....my life is not that easy....understanding who am i is not easy.....unless you willing.....or else all in vain......i am still trying my very best to survive each moment.....coz that's not easy!!!!!

the next one who is willing to hold my hands tight......
the next one who is willing to give me a single glance.....
the next one who i can lean on and depend on.......
the next one who can open and enter my heart.....
i bless you first.....i thank you also!!!