you better stop it!!!!!

someone tells me ''YOU BETTER STOP IT!!!''
i cried...it's hurting.....seems like a deep cut into my heart....
so painful...til i lost the feeling....i don't even know how to smile...
i am begging.....pls stop saying that......i cant take it....sorry!!!

oh man!!! i am a normal person....i have feeling !!! i got feeling !!! i got mood !!!
not only you will feel worse....so do I !!!

''old uncle............thanks for making me laugh and smile in the early morning...that's miracle.....i smile with tears....old uncle............that's painful!!! terribly painful!!! you told me you know the feeling......you told me if you are leaving you also will not feel excited at all....you told me you were so sorry for me........you told me that i will not be kicked away by ppl......you told me that things will turn out to be great there.......you told me you will teach me guitar when i am back for holidays.....you told me being sticky is quite ok......you told me you will be there for me......you told me after 70 years we might meet in heaven......old uncle.......i don't really know you....but thanks for such great encouragement....it's make me alive!!! thanks....old uncle....''

the fellow who asked me ''YOU BETTER STOP IT!!!''....i forgive you....''我不是真的要你回来，只是害怕一个人看海''.........i know i cant give you what you need...but i hope you will search for what you really need.....i am learning to grow up....i hope you too!!! i will stop it as you wish....but i will never stop praying for you....that's the only thing i can do!!!